I lost my precious baby on Monday. I don't really know what else to say. I never doubted for a minute that I would have a baby in my arms this December, I never thought this would happen again.
I started bleeding on Saturday, it was really light, I was worried but I kept telling myself everything would be fine. I tried to take it easy but we had to move on Monday, so there was a lot to do. I spent most of the weekend at my parents so I wasn't tempted to do anything and my husband found other people to help with the packing. By Monday afternoon I was bleeding really heavy and the cramping was unbearable. By 9 I was in the emergency room because the pain was so terrible. I don't know why I went, I was just so completely hopeless and I had no faith that everything would be okay. I am somewhat relieved that there will be pathology done this time around and maybe that will give me some answer to why this happened. I was there so long and the staff, though trying to be kind were just so cold. I kept correcting them when they reffered to my baby as "tissue" or "that mass you passed". I had a baby with finger and toes and a heart...it was not just a mass of cells. I'm Rh- and the ER didn't have Rhogamm so I had to go back the next day to get the shot. I was there for another 3 hours just waiting to do that.
I really enjoyed the 11 and a half weeks of my pregnancy and I was glad to have you ladies to share it with.
I started bleeding on Saturday, it was really light, I was worried but I kept telling myself everything would be fine. I tried to take it easy but we had to move on Monday, so there was a lot to do. I spent most of the weekend at my parents so I wasn't tempted to do anything and my husband found other people to help with the packing. By Monday afternoon I was bleeding really heavy and the cramping was unbearable. By 9 I was in the emergency room because the pain was so terrible. I don't know why I went, I was just so completely hopeless and I had no faith that everything would be okay. I am somewhat relieved that there will be pathology done this time around and maybe that will give me some answer to why this happened. I was there so long and the staff, though trying to be kind were just so cold. I kept correcting them when they reffered to my baby as "tissue" or "that mass you passed". I had a baby with finger and toes and a heart...it was not just a mass of cells. I'm Rh- and the ER didn't have Rhogamm so I had to go back the next day to get the shot. I was there for another 3 hours just waiting to do that.
I really enjoyed the 11 and a half weeks of my pregnancy and I was glad to have you ladies to share it with.
