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I am only 36 weeks, so I don't even feel justified writing this post when some of you are hanging on at 42 weeks, but this has been the longest and most difficult of all my pregnancies and I am having a hard time waiting for it to be over.<br><br>
It started with horrible morning sickness which turned into ALL DAY sickness from weeks 4-20. I was dehydrated, sick, weak, faint, and spent 4 months of my life on the couch with other people taking care of me. I wanted to die- I mean really just DIE. Luckily, around 20 weeks I felt much better and was able to get out of bed and start living again, but it took a few more months to regain even half the strength I had lost. I definitely haven't been myself since then. I had a good period from about 28-32 weeks, and then the 3rd trimester exhaustion kicked in, and the back pain, etc...and this last week I'm really struggling- mostly with pain- hips, pelvis, pubic bone, etc..- been getting acupuncture, seeing my chiro, and swimming/stretching every day but nothing really helps. I can't sleep at night, I gasp in pain every time I have to move and am now peeing every hour. During the day, my blood pressure has ben fluctuating so I have to lay down a lot when it goes up- I'm so swollen that my skin hurts and I can barely walk, and I want to sleep all day.<br><br>
I also have had a hell of a time staying at the birthing center because of a whole slew of health issues, but so far I'm still under their care and hoping every day that I can still have the birth we planned for.<br><br>
I have two sons and am getting ready to have my first daughter, so every moment of this has been well worth the hardship- I feel like I've been waiting for her my whole life- but for some reason, since we're in the home stretch I just want to be done. I want to see her face, and know that all this work was for something tangible. I want to hold her, and for her brothers to meet her- we've all been waiting so long. But I'm also nervous about postpartum since I'm having so many health issues that could cause me to crash...really hoping I feel better once the placenta is outta there <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"><br><br>
This morning, aftrer a horrible and painful nights sleep, my husband left to go fishing and accidentally set off the alarm system, so the kids were up in my face before 7am and asking me for a hundred things...so I am just grumpy and teary and need sleep and am pissed that my husband gets to go out fishing while I sit here and be in pain and misery and deal with two sleep deprived children (that don't nap anymore) when I'm sleep deprived myself. ARGHHH!!<br><br>
I just needed to vent, thanks for listening <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">
It started with horrible morning sickness which turned into ALL DAY sickness from weeks 4-20. I was dehydrated, sick, weak, faint, and spent 4 months of my life on the couch with other people taking care of me. I wanted to die- I mean really just DIE. Luckily, around 20 weeks I felt much better and was able to get out of bed and start living again, but it took a few more months to regain even half the strength I had lost. I definitely haven't been myself since then. I had a good period from about 28-32 weeks, and then the 3rd trimester exhaustion kicked in, and the back pain, etc...and this last week I'm really struggling- mostly with pain- hips, pelvis, pubic bone, etc..- been getting acupuncture, seeing my chiro, and swimming/stretching every day but nothing really helps. I can't sleep at night, I gasp in pain every time I have to move and am now peeing every hour. During the day, my blood pressure has ben fluctuating so I have to lay down a lot when it goes up- I'm so swollen that my skin hurts and I can barely walk, and I want to sleep all day.<br><br>
I also have had a hell of a time staying at the birthing center because of a whole slew of health issues, but so far I'm still under their care and hoping every day that I can still have the birth we planned for.<br><br>
I have two sons and am getting ready to have my first daughter, so every moment of this has been well worth the hardship- I feel like I've been waiting for her my whole life- but for some reason, since we're in the home stretch I just want to be done. I want to see her face, and know that all this work was for something tangible. I want to hold her, and for her brothers to meet her- we've all been waiting so long. But I'm also nervous about postpartum since I'm having so many health issues that could cause me to crash...really hoping I feel better once the placenta is outta there <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"><br><br>
This morning, aftrer a horrible and painful nights sleep, my husband left to go fishing and accidentally set off the alarm system, so the kids were up in my face before 7am and asking me for a hundred things...so I am just grumpy and teary and need sleep and am pissed that my husband gets to go out fishing while I sit here and be in pain and misery and deal with two sleep deprived children (that don't nap anymore) when I'm sleep deprived myself. ARGHHH!!<br><br>
I just needed to vent, thanks for listening <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">
