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I am only 36 weeks, so I don't even feel justified writing this post when some of you are hanging on at 42 weeks, but this has been the longest and most difficult of all my pregnancies and I am having a hard time waiting for it to be over.<br><br>
It started with horrible morning sickness which turned into ALL DAY sickness from weeks 4-20. I was dehydrated, sick, weak, faint, and spent 4 months of my life on the couch with other people taking care of me. I wanted to die- I mean really just DIE. Luckily, around 20 weeks I felt much better and was able to get out of bed and start living again, but it took a few more months to regain even half the strength I had lost. I definitely haven't been myself since then. I had a good period from about 28-32 weeks, and then the 3rd trimester exhaustion kicked in, and the back pain, etc...and this last week I'm really struggling- mostly with pain- hips, pelvis, pubic bone, etc..- been getting acupuncture, seeing my chiro, and swimming/stretching every day but nothing really helps. I can't sleep at night, I gasp in pain every time I have to move and am now peeing every hour. During the day, my blood pressure has ben fluctuating so I have to lay down a lot when it goes up- I'm so swollen that my skin hurts and I can barely walk, and I want to sleep all day.<br><br>
I also have had a hell of a time staying at the birthing center because of a whole slew of health issues, but so far I'm still under their care and hoping every day that I can still have the birth we planned for.<br><br>
I have two sons and am getting ready to have my first daughter, so every moment of this has been well worth the hardship- I feel like I've been waiting for her my whole life- but for some reason, since we're in the home stretch I just want to be done. I want to see her face, and know that all this work was for something tangible. I want to hold her, and for her brothers to meet her- we've all been waiting so long. But I'm also nervous about postpartum since I'm having so many health issues that could cause me to crash...really hoping I feel better once the placenta is outta there <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"><br><br>
This morning, aftrer a horrible and painful nights sleep, my husband left to go fishing and accidentally set off the alarm system, so the kids were up in my face before 7am and asking me for a hundred things...so I am just grumpy and teary and need sleep and am pissed that my husband gets to go out fishing while I sit here and be in pain and misery and deal with two sleep deprived children (that don't nap anymore) when I'm sleep deprived myself. ARGHHH!!<br><br>
I just needed to vent, thanks for listening <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">
 

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Oh mama, I'm so sorry <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> I know it doesn't seem like it, but I'm sure the next couple/few weeks will go by SO FAST and before you know it you will have your beautiful little daughter and you will be just fine.<br><br>
Hang in there, you can do it!!!
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2"> Wow. The alarm scenario would have me crying for hours. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked"><br>
I know what you mean, though. I'm only 36 weeks and feel like the next month will take an eternity. But I know I will miss it when it is over; this is our last baby, too. And I'm so emotional (which is unusual for me, even pregnant). I think dh is a bit scared! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink">
 

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Poor you!<br><br>
I feel the same, although now reading your post, a little better as this is my first and I don't have other kids to contend with...<br><br>
I'm 38 weeks today. OVER. IT.<br><br>
I think the biggest realization is that nearly a full YEAR of my life I have not felt like myself. I too had horrible morning sickness from week 5-12 and then after it went away as far as the vomiting went, I felt ravenous and completely not myself with exhaustion well into the second trimester. Had the nice 6 week or so break of feeling really good and then have dealt with aches and pains, feeling huge, a hand that is numb constantly from carpel tunnel... on and on.<br><br>
At least I can count my blessings, which are:<br><br>
*No serious complications to boot me up to high risk<br>
*A fantastic team of 3 midwives<br>
*My birth being completely covered<br>
*An amazing husband<br>
*Getting my much longed for baby girl<br>
*The assurance that it will be over in 3 weeks or less<br>
*I'll get to sleep on my stomach soon again (or at least lay on it, if not sleep!)<br>
*I have an amazing prize waiting at the end of all this<br>
*I made it to full term (my sister has a baby currently in the NICU, one of twins)<br>
*No stretch marks<br>
*No heartburn<br>
*Great skin<br>
*A fantastic chance that my baby girl is 100% healthy<br>
******<br>
Actually, wait, what was I whining about?<br><br>
Blessing counting helps!
 

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I'm right there with you mama... I am 36.5 weeks and I've been having prodromal labor for a week and am expecting at least a few more weeks before this baby comes earthside. I've been really sick most of this pregnancy, so sick I've been in and out of the hospital and have had to give myself IV fluid at home for several weeks now. I feel guilty for being sooo done! I can't wait till I can sleep again without hurting terribly. I can't wait till I have some kind of an appetite and can actually enjoy food again!<br><br>
I just keep telling myself we can do it! We've done it this far right? Only a few more weeks to go. and nobody is pregnant forever (except for maybe that women in asia who had a calcified fetus in her uterus for over 30 years, but that's another thing altogether!)
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug"><br><br>
I'm so sorry. It's a miserable time anyway, but being sleep deprived just concentrates the misery in unfathomable ways. Is there any chance you can put on a DVD and snuggle up on the couch for some "half sleep"? Sometimes my lil ones let me get away with that...or I enforce an hour long quiet time. They can play a video game, TV, (at these times I really don't care as long as there is no fire and everyone is alive at the end of an hour)...and mama needs a nap on the couch. If they can't behave for it, then they have to nap with me. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink"> I usually hear nothing for that hour and can catch a little extra zzz's.<br><br>
I'm not due til the very end of May as well. Yesterday I felt like hell-could have wrote your post about swelling and such, even had a headache! I smacked down some massive protein and feel much much better today...other than being in the last month of pregnancy. Hopefully tomorrow will look better for you!<br><br>
On a side note: my DH is totally doing the guy thing right now. It's like he's gotta get in the "last" everything before the baby comes. I just roll my eyes because it's not like he's going to sit still after baby arrives either <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> I suppose it's his way of working out the new dad to be kinks. He has his own nesting list of must accomplish things before baby. Which I wouldn't mind so much, but there are things I need him to do on mine! (I'm certainly not going to stand on a ladder outside to wash the windows that are three years past due for a cleaning...) <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll">
 

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Geez mama...why couldn't the boys have a nice fishing day w their dad while you got to rest?<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked"> The alarm clock thing would put me over the edge. so sorry! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
I am feeling terrible too.<br>
Was up most of the night w cramps/contrax and then threw up violently around 4 am. Feel like shite right now.<br>
Thankfully, my DH is taking care of our very very energetic 18 month old toddler son. He started his month off vacay from work on Friday b/c I am too incapacitated to pick him up or be on top of things.<br>
I am 39 weeks this week and really feeling it.<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><br>
Can't sleep, feel like a crab, pelvis hurts, been dilated just past 3 cm and 70% effaced as of last Wednesday which I feel, super dizzy, breathless, queasy, sciatic pain, swelling in legs and ankles...wah.<br>
Hope this baby comes soonish.
 

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Let it out mama. I sure do hear you. I'm about to hit 39 weeks and I'm having a really hard time getting through these last days and weeks. I'm miserable and emotionally spent.<br><br>
((((warm hugs)))))
 
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