I feel this is the only place in which I can truely admit the truth. I hit my child. I don't spank. I hit. Not every day, not every week, but often enough that the remorse and guilt I feel is making me write. I have a library of books on GP, I know my triggers, and I know I don't have time to take care of myself. All this said, it still happens. Like today. This started when DD arrived a year ago (when DS was just turning two). There were lots of adjustments, but what surprised me the most was my anger and resentment. Anger at everyone, but DS got the end of it. I'm looking at DS's curls that are partially covering the welt that I left on his check and neck today and wonder how to stop, why I'm so quick to anger and hit and mostly how to never, never do it again. Please, I hope there's someone out there who's been there. Wisdom, please. Words of encouragement, please.