[St. Margaret]

Hi! check out my chart to see what's been going on. I wasn't seriously charting this month as I had a m/c last month and we were waiting one cycle. Well, God and my DH's sex drive (and mine, off that dang pill!) may have conspired against our best intentions... my temps went down but then went back up, in no really clear pattern! But I've had three HIGH temps (for me) the last three days, although down 1/10 each day... SO I just poas'd and got a definite but FAINT 2nd line. I just called my doc's and they are writing orders for me to go get a blood test done. They agreed with me about my one BIG hesitation-- could it just be leftover hormones from my first failed pregnancy? I started bleeding July 11th and it was all over by the 17th... everything back to normal. It was just like a normal period, really. SO MY QUESTION IS: how likely is it that this is a new pregnancy versus just the remains of the last one?

Don't even get me started on how I've been painting my house for the last week and had a drink last weekend... I don't even want to go there.

I am spazzing out here (I swear I am normally very calm about TTC, not neurotic and antsy at all!) but we are driving up the coast this afternoon because today is our 4th wedding anniversary and I'm supposed to be baking cookies and packing and doing dishes, and I've been on the phone with the doc and now I have to go get this paperwork and go to the lab... is it even worth it, do you think? It seems doomed anyway, all the paint fumes and the fact that I have had pretty good bleeding for the last few days! I am pessimistic at this point, after what happened last month. But YIKES would it be awesome to be pregnant. I just don't know what to tell DH, should I go to the lab right now and keep it mum, should I tell him about the BFP tonight at our lovely dinner-- ack!

Okay, calming down now... THANKS for any btdt or other info!

 

[melmo]

If you haven't tracked the hcg down to nothing, I think it's very likely from the first pregnancy. I had 2 losses and my hcg actually went up for a good while after the loss and then took a while to come back down. I did get pregnant very shortly after and since my uterus lining hadn't had time to thicken, I lost another one. I honestly hope it's the old one so you have time for your body to heal first. I was devastated when it happened again.

 

[wanderinggypsy]

Ugh, the confusion we are requierd to wade through on our road to motherhood.

OK. I'm not an expert, but I do know that a couple of my friends had miscarriages and then their HCG did not go all the way down for at least one cycle.

But that doesn't mean anything for sure.

I think how fast your HCG goes down after miscarriage may have something to do with how far along you were. I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks last month and my levels went down to nothing within a week of the bleeding stopping.

Also if you do turn out to be pregnant, don't beat yourself up too much about the paint and the drink. While it is advisable to avoid teratogens during pregnancy, have faith in the fact that your body has a substantial threshold for such things, and that your body works as a giant filter to keep the baddies away from the baby.

Good luck, and try to relax.

 

[St. Margaret]

Melmo-- Okay, thanks for that info. That would make a LOT more sense about my temps seeming just "OFF" really. I'm definitely going to keep mum about it until we (doc and I) know what's actually going on. Thanks, and I'm so glad you're expecting now!

wandering gypsy-- thanks! I had JUST taking the test and called the doc when I posted, and my head was spinning from the confusion. You really helped me calm down

My levels were only at like 100-something on July 13th, so I figured they'd be gone, but you never know. I think I'm just going to wait and see... act pregnant for now, no champagne (that's okay, I don't like it anyway!) and then we'll see next week. I might even skip the blood test today after all... it seems silly to bother when we're trying to get out of town! I'll see what DH thinks...

 

[SereneBabe]

thanks for asking that question! I mc last cycle and this cycle I didn't o until 35 days (usually around day 12 or 13ish). one more reason not to test early since we did "try" this cycle...

--Heather

 

[twilight girl]

I would get the blood test if I were you. If your levels were at 100 or so on July 13, I think it´s likely you were back to zero. Seems like anything under 100 (blood level) would be hard to detect POAS. No harm in getting the blood test, then you'll know!

Good luck!!!
Judi

 

[St. Margaret]

Thanks, all! I went in for the blood test, feeling totally foolish about asking about it at all. I don't want my OB, who've I've only ever met in crazy m/c circumstances, to think I'm some deluded neurotic woman, ykwim? I am going to WAIT til Monday to get the blood test repeated and then I guess that means Tuesday we'll know what's going on. They called with the results and said the number was SO low we just couldn't tell anything yet. Stupid me on vacation just up from a late-afternoon nap forgot to ask what exact # "very very low" was... oh well. I feel like it MUST just be "leftover" hormones, and I guess that could be making my temps go up, too? OR perhaps I have some cells reproducing and I guess it's good to know about that, as it seems I'd want those flushed out to have a new healthy pregnancy! ANYway, I guess I will know more in the next several days.... how lame when the glorified pee stick is rendered useless and dumb! LOL.

 

[GearGirl]

Good luck - how far along were you when you had your loss? I don't think I saw that in your post. I wish you luck, either way it makes sense to find out what is going on with your body.

 

[St. Margaret]

Ah, I was only about 5 weeks along officially. It was a very early loss. No D and C, and the reading I've been doing now suggests I might be highly fertile... but at the same time I guess it could be regrowth of cells! We should know one way or another this upcoming week.... although I poas'd again Sat (darn multi-packs! the temptation!) and it was still positive, maybe darker/faster... so not going down to 0 on its own, whatever it is.

 

[aran]

Hi St. Marg. I m/c at 7 weeks starting July 12, so almost the same time you did. I had a bunch of cheap pregnancy tests sitting around, so I used them to confirm that hcg went down to undetectable (according to pee-sticks, which clearly is less ensitive than blood tests)... to avoid exactly what is happening to you, just in case! Anyhow, fwiw my levels were undetectable using a 20 mIU/mL (low detection limit) pg test a week after bleeding stopped. If your levels were 100 a month ago when the m/c began... hmmm, keep us updated on the result of that second blood test! Seems possible you might be pg again!!

 

[St. Margaret]

Thanks, aran! I'm sorry to hear about your m/c. I feel a bit silly because I had a PERIOD for goodness' sake, but I swear I'm getting this strong feeling I'm pregnant... we didn't even BD much around the right time, I swear.... I'm going to use my last pee stick tomorrow morning to see if it's still positive so I don't have to just wait blindly through the blood test and getting results Tuesday... maybe they could have them by the end of the day if I go early...