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Announcing the birth of Caitlin Ryan S_ !<br>
9 pounds, 14 ounces<br>
20 inches long<br>
November 27, 2007<br>
1:22 am<br><br>
I'm sorry its taken me so long to post--I just got home from the hospital today. Its been a very long week.<br><br>
To make a long story short, I sent into labor late Sunday night--had contractions and no sleep all night. Went to the hospital at noon the next day and was 5 centimeters dialated. However, Caitlin had turned OP and was up high at +3 station. I was also leaking green fluid (meconium). Had horrible back labor, but used my Bradley techniques and handled it OK. My MW was incredibly supportive, as was my nurse. I pushed for 3 hours with absolutely no progress whatsoever. Caitlin and my heartrates/blood pressures were dangerously low, even with me on oxygen for the last hour and a half. I was also running a very high fever. She just couldn't descend. After 27 hours of labor, I ended up with an emergency c-section. Fortunately, the anastesiologist (my pp brain can't spell that word right now) was right there and was able to slip in a quick epidural so i didn't have to have a general and I was able to be conscious for the surgery.<br><br>
It was a really rough surgery this time because my body was already in bad shape from the labor, but they got her out safe and sound. She was 9 pounds 14 ounces--bear in mind I am just over 100 pounds not pregnant. Unfortunately, Caitlin had to go to the NICU for about an hour (with DH) because she was sick from the meconium. They actually made it back to the recovery room before I did (I was getting stitched up). Her glucose was dangerously low, but she nursed like a champ right away and we got that up quickly. We both had infections from the meconium and had to have antibiotics for a few days. She is still having a really hard time keeping her body temp up--we have to go see more docs on Monday.<br><br>
Anyway, it was really an emotional week. Sometimes I get really upset that I didn't get my VBAC. However, as my midwife said, I went through every stage of labor and handled it really well (I literally had random nurses coming to see me labor before things got ugly because they couldn't believe how well I has doing). She told me that I did everything I possibly could have to have this baby vaginally, that there was nothing more I could have done, that the c-section was necessary to keep Caitlin and I alive. I am trying to repeat this to myself and not get upset or feel like a failure.<br><br>
We had to spend the whole week in the hospital, but are finally home. DH has to take 2 weeks off because I have a lot of extra activity restrictions. I'm glad to have him around--I think in some ways this whole ordeal was more emotionally difficult for him than for me. He was really worried that he was going to lose both of us for a while there.<br><br>
Emily is in crazy love with Caitlin and is transitioning very well, especially considering she didn't get to see me too much this week when normally we are inseperable.<br><br>
Anyway, that's the quickie version of my story. I will attach pictures once I have the energy to figure out how.<br><br>
I can't wait to catch up with the posts over the last week and see how everyone is doing!
 

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Oh my! I thought MY labor was a nightmare. You win!<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> I'm sorry things didn't go as planned. But I am so happy that you and Caitlin are safe! Congratulations on your baby!!! I hope you are feeling ok.
 

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I'm so glad to see your post! We have been wondering about you. I'm sorry that you had such a rough labor and birthing and that you didn't get your VBAC, but so glad to hear that you are home now and you and baby are well. I think it's really normal to mourn when you have a C-section... I can't remember what the situation was with your first section, but with mine it was another situation where baby and I just would not have survived without the surgery. Even knowing that, there was a mourning process that happened. Eventually you'll come to a peace with it - give yourself time. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
Hope you have a smooth recovery! Best wishes to you and baby, and I'll look forward to pictures. More <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> s
 

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Congratulations mama & welcome baby Caitlin! A rough labour but you did nothing wrong & deserve to feel only pride for bringing your baby girl into the world. May you find peace & healing & get lots of support from your DH & those around you. Wishing you many homemade soup delivery vibes.
 

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This is why cesereans can be a necessary tool - sounds like you did everything you could! That means there was NO failure, mama!<br><br>
CONGRATS!!
 

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Congratulations and welcome Caitlin!<br><br>
I'm so sorry you didn't get your VBAC. You are an amazingly strong mama...all that labor plus a c-section. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">
 

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oh, i'm so glad to see you!! i'm sorry that labor was rough on you and that you ended up with a c-section but i think your midwife is absolutely right. be kind to yourself, mama, and make sure to take care of yourself (emotionally as well as physically). i'm so glad beebee is well.
 

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Congratulations on the birth of Caitlin. I love the name. Like other pp said what a strong mama you are! Be gentle on yourself as you recover. I will send you healing vibes.
 

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congrats!!!!!!!!!<br><br>
hard work always pay off even if it does not end how u think! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/Welcome.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="welcome"> to baby Caitlin!<br><br>
Rest and heal, mama. You did an amazing job.
 

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Wow I feel for your emotional and physical roller coaster. It is Ok to be so proud you should feel like shouting You did an incredible labour and a harder job with birth than most natural birth mamas even experience. You birthed through yourself and I know it won't come easy but you will come to peace with that. SO glad baby girl is transitioning to her hard lebour to get here too! Blessings and healing to you. Be proud mama!
 

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Oh hun, your post has me in tears. You are such a strong mother and I hope you can come to find peace in all this. I really feel like you did all you could and that you had a cs that saved your lives. (((((hugs))))) Moments like this we need to thank the powers that we have such medical help when it is used right.<br><br>
Keep Safe. We are here for you.<br><br>
Love and Light,<br>
Kimmy
 

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I hope you recover quickly from such a hard birth - you labored harder than most, and also had a section. Be kind to yourself, you did everything you could - but, cs are a necessity and thank god they exist. I hope Caitlin checks out well on Monday as well.
 

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Congrats on your babe. Sorry to hear about all the difficulties, but good to hear everyne is doing well now! Rest up.
 

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You are a strong, brave birth warrior! 27 hours of labor, 3 hours of pushing, AND an emergency cesarean birth?! I hope you can feel proud of all you endured for your little girl. But I'm sorry it didn't happen the way you wanted it to. I know how hard that is to reconcile and how it defies all logic but you feel a sense of failure anyway. Hugs to you....<br><br>
I love the name Caitlin--that's my DD1's name! And spelled the same way too!
 

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Welcome home, and congrats on your baby girl! Glad you are both ok!<br><br>
I want to give you a <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> because I am in your same boat - I didnt get my HBAC because of complications, and ended up with another emergency c-section. Labor went just fine until the complications started, and then turned into a nightmare with emergency transport, nasty hospital staff, the works. I'm devastated that my last pregnancy ended in such a traumatic way but so happy my baby girl is ok. I just dont want you to feel alone amongst all the successful VBAC stories and homebirth stories, as I've felt.<br><br>
Congrats on your baby girl!
 

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congrats on baby!!!<br><br>
so sorry you didn't get your VBAC...your story reminded me slightly of my labor w/ meghan...26 hours of hell and then wound up w/ ceserean due to 'failure to dilate/progress' and 'fetal tacharidia'. sigh...<br><br>
i'm glad you are alright as is baby girl.
 
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