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...maybe I just need to vent or something...
I've had really bad fatigue for the last 4 years. I remember the month it started, April 2006. At first I attributed it to stress and then to winter and then to something else & here we are 4 years later & nothing's changed.
I went to a doctor in Feb. 2008 & before even asking any questions or examining me, she told me I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. She did run a few tests after that (thyroid, nutritional deficiencies, etc.) & nothing showed up. I haven't seen a doc since then (except for my OB) 'cause there's no cure for CFS so I didn't see the point.
Went on a GF & soy-free diet & felt really good after about a month. Then I got pg & was so wiped out & starving so I gave up the GF-SF diet. My third trimester I felt AMAZING. My energy was almost as good as it used to be, even though I was pg!!!
Then sure enough, DS was born & within a month or so my energy plummeted again. Tried the GF-SF diet again with no effect. I want to go to my DS's doc & figure out what's wrong with me but I'm afraid he'll just blame it on my DS's horrible sleeping. But I know that's not the issue.
Pre-2006, I was working 3 jobs to support myself & help my now-DH. I was a full-time college student with 2 majors & a minor & heavily involved in tons of extracurricular stuff. I went to bed at 12 or 1 or 2am & was up by 7 or 8am. I worked out 30-60 minutes a day. I had tons & tons & tons of energy. I was depressed on & off and had some anxiety & serious personal trauma but I really feel like those were my best years.
Now I'm 27. I can't think clearly. I can't function. I work from home full-time & take care of DS when DH isn't home but that's ALL. I. DO. I can't clean, I can't do laundry, I rarely cook, I can sometimes manage a walk outside but I suffer for it (feel so wiped out for the next 12+ hours). It's not being "tired" like you need to sleep... I can't nap & actually can only sleep about 8-10 hours at night and that's with waking up to nurse frequently. It's more like I feel like I'm sluggish, running on empty, can't move. Sometimes if I start doing something I can run on pure adrenaline but the second I stop that's it, I'm toast. I'm not depressed & anxious the way I was when I was younger, but I do feel incredibly down about my inability to contribute to my family & my household. I end up sitting or laying down 95% of the day and like I said earlier, if I push myself to do more I really pay for it. I tried some dietary changes (more fat, more protein, more calories, etc.) but nothing really helps. Sometimes I feel like I'm just lazy & it's all in my head, especially when DH is running around folding laundry & doing dishes while watching DS so I can rest. I'm just so frustrated with myself & really feel like my body has failed me. I want to have energy again. I want to do all the things I loved. I want to play with my son!!!!!
I guess I don't really know why I'm writing this out but I just needed to. Thank you for reading if you got this far, and if anyone has any clue what the heck is wrong with me or how to fix it... PLEASE share.
I've had really bad fatigue for the last 4 years. I remember the month it started, April 2006. At first I attributed it to stress and then to winter and then to something else & here we are 4 years later & nothing's changed.
I went to a doctor in Feb. 2008 & before even asking any questions or examining me, she told me I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. She did run a few tests after that (thyroid, nutritional deficiencies, etc.) & nothing showed up. I haven't seen a doc since then (except for my OB) 'cause there's no cure for CFS so I didn't see the point.
Went on a GF & soy-free diet & felt really good after about a month. Then I got pg & was so wiped out & starving so I gave up the GF-SF diet. My third trimester I felt AMAZING. My energy was almost as good as it used to be, even though I was pg!!!
Then sure enough, DS was born & within a month or so my energy plummeted again. Tried the GF-SF diet again with no effect. I want to go to my DS's doc & figure out what's wrong with me but I'm afraid he'll just blame it on my DS's horrible sleeping. But I know that's not the issue.
Pre-2006, I was working 3 jobs to support myself & help my now-DH. I was a full-time college student with 2 majors & a minor & heavily involved in tons of extracurricular stuff. I went to bed at 12 or 1 or 2am & was up by 7 or 8am. I worked out 30-60 minutes a day. I had tons & tons & tons of energy. I was depressed on & off and had some anxiety & serious personal trauma but I really feel like those were my best years.
Now I'm 27. I can't think clearly. I can't function. I work from home full-time & take care of DS when DH isn't home but that's ALL. I. DO. I can't clean, I can't do laundry, I rarely cook, I can sometimes manage a walk outside but I suffer for it (feel so wiped out for the next 12+ hours). It's not being "tired" like you need to sleep... I can't nap & actually can only sleep about 8-10 hours at night and that's with waking up to nurse frequently. It's more like I feel like I'm sluggish, running on empty, can't move. Sometimes if I start doing something I can run on pure adrenaline but the second I stop that's it, I'm toast. I'm not depressed & anxious the way I was when I was younger, but I do feel incredibly down about my inability to contribute to my family & my household. I end up sitting or laying down 95% of the day and like I said earlier, if I push myself to do more I really pay for it. I tried some dietary changes (more fat, more protein, more calories, etc.) but nothing really helps. Sometimes I feel like I'm just lazy & it's all in my head, especially when DH is running around folding laundry & doing dishes while watching DS so I can rest. I'm just so frustrated with myself & really feel like my body has failed me. I want to have energy again. I want to do all the things I loved. I want to play with my son!!!!!
I guess I don't really know why I'm writing this out but I just needed to. Thank you for reading if you got this far, and if anyone has any clue what the heck is wrong with me or how to fix it... PLEASE share.