I am looking for some advice maybe someone who has had a similiar experience. 10 days ago I developed bacterial meningitis overnight, I was hospitalized for over a week and am now continuing one more week of IV antibiotics through a central line at home. Fortunately it was caught quickly, and today I am up to using the computer again...but my poor poor little girl - 12 mo, whom I did not get to even see for 8 days in the hospital, and can't even carry yet due to weakness, is very unhappy and confused as she cannot nurse while I am finishing the high dose antibiotic. No one even thought about my need to pump during the first 36 hours I was in the hospital, and I was so ill that when my husband did bring the pump to me it took a lot of strength to pump enough to just make me comfortable during my stay, which wasn't nearly frequent enough to keep up my milk supply under the circumstances. So now that I am a little better at home I don't know if I should start pumping frequently to try and produce again, or if it is "all over" - I know that Hanna still wants to nurse, she crawls over and pulls my shirt up frequently and has to be distracted with other food/toys. Has anyone had this type of situation before and any ideas...or even ideas on how to help a confused little girl who has taken to throwing tantrums every five minutes because her mommy won't nurse her and can't carry her around.