Hello,
I know I should be excited, but I'm not. I'm scared! I have a 23 month ds, who nurses a lot (day and night) and cosleeps with us. My days fly by chasing him around and picking up the disasters he leaves behind. I never had a return of af and had difficulty getting pregnant the first time, so I'm surprised about being pregnant now. I don't know that I'm ready for another nursing babe. I still wear Jonah (ds) in the sling and this may sound strange (hormonal?) but, it breaks my heart to imagine sharing my love/time/breasts/everything with another baby besides ds. I feel overwhelmed, like I've given everything I have to my dh and ds and now am supposed to find more??? How do you all do it? I know, it will work out and I'm still in the shock phase, but, none-the-less, I'm scared! AND, how do I leave Jonah (who refuses to be left with ANYONE other than mom and dad) to go to the hospital to have this other baby--I will have to have a repeat C-sec--no VBACs in the hospital I live by. Sorry for my complaining, I just know how much work is in store--way different the second time around! I really want to fall in love with this pregnancy and baby, I just am having a hard time.
I know I should be excited, but I'm not. I'm scared! I have a 23 month ds, who nurses a lot (day and night) and cosleeps with us. My days fly by chasing him around and picking up the disasters he leaves behind. I never had a return of af and had difficulty getting pregnant the first time, so I'm surprised about being pregnant now. I don't know that I'm ready for another nursing babe. I still wear Jonah (ds) in the sling and this may sound strange (hormonal?) but, it breaks my heart to imagine sharing my love/time/breasts/everything with another baby besides ds. I feel overwhelmed, like I've given everything I have to my dh and ds and now am supposed to find more??? How do you all do it? I know, it will work out and I'm still in the shock phase, but, none-the-less, I'm scared! AND, how do I leave Jonah (who refuses to be left with ANYONE other than mom and dad) to go to the hospital to have this other baby--I will have to have a repeat C-sec--no VBACs in the hospital I live by. Sorry for my complaining, I just know how much work is in store--way different the second time around! I really want to fall in love with this pregnancy and baby, I just am having a hard time.