[ColoradoKat]

...........Sometimes I don't like being pregnant........

I love:

Feeling the baby move
Connecting with this little being
Feeling so close to my husband
The way my body looks (most days)

I am really not liking:

The back pain
The hard kicks
I feel like I am never comfortable
I am so whiny
I have no energy
All these BH
My "soft serve ice cream" consistancy poops because of all the Magnesium I am taking because of all these BH's.
Being hungry all the time, but once I eat I just feel full and bloated.
The pressure on my belly
I feel like crying all the time and usually do
My short temper
Feeling alone
I went on a walk this morning with my husband, I had BH the whole time, waddled the whole way, got all swollen, was too hot and broke down in tears 3x.

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Feeling like my spine does not work anymore
Having to leave functions early because I am soooo uncomfortable!

I am sure there is more. I feel guilty about this. It seems like all my friends hiked, had lots of sex, and were glowing during their pregnancies. I ask them if they ever had any of the above and none of them have. I am already ready for this baby to be here and I still have at least 8 weeks left.

I knew there would be ups and downs but I am sad that it seems like I have more downs. I want to feel good again and not hurt all the time.

 

[jule924]

It's different for everyone. Don't kick yourself for not loving it!!

 

[PuppyFluffer]

I dont love it either. I am certain that this baby will complete our family and I look forward to not bering pregnant ever again.

For me, it's the constant heartburn (preceeded by constant throwing up) and the feeling of having my body totaly hijacked. I can't stand to eat all the things I used to love. I don't care if I ever eat again. I don't like the smell of most all food.

But I love mooshie squooshie newborns!

 

[pageta]

I think the third trimester is what gets a lot of moms. Pregnancy is fine until then. Maybe you have a difficult first trimester, but the second is pretty easy. Then the third comes along and you start counting the days until 37 weeks and wonder how you'll ever be able to make it through. I think it just comes with the territory.

 

[LavenderMae]

I love and HATE being pregnant all at the same time. Physically it's hard on me and emotionally too. The first trimester and into the second kick my a$$ with all the fatigue, nausea and food adversion and just feeling like crap. I feel a lot better now but now I'm huge and walking is hard, the baby is pressing up on my lungs and stomach blah blah blah...

But I feel so I don't know earthy , natural and so womanly when pregnant. I absolutely love knowing there is an adorable, sweet , yummy smelling being growing in my womb. But having them is what makes it all worth it but I do not want to do this ever ever again.
Don't feel bad plenty of woman don't like being pregnant, it's normal!

 

[SunRayeMomi]

Your post sounded a lot like all that I've been complaining about lately!! I'm so emotional this time around! Well, it's been five years. So I don't remember having these exact feelings the first time. But I'm sure I was just as uncomfortable the first time. Still, it's not as bad as some think. Everyone comments on the heat, and that's actually the least of my problems TBH. It hasn't bothered me as much as the other stuff you listed, for sure!

 

[OMama]

ColoradoKat - I can relate to most everything you said. I feel almost exactly the same way. And I feel like there is a certain amount of guilt associated with it. I am so incredibly happy to be having this baby. Our family will be "complete" too, and I'm trying to enjoy it knowing it is the last time, but honestly I am pretty miserable most days too. I am still FUCKING nauseous. Sorry I just really had to swear. I am sooooooo soooooo very tired of that. I've been feeling this way for about 25 weeks now and realize I will probably be this way until the end. But it's not only that. Really, I could relate to almost your whole list. I would add the peeing thing on there. I am tired of it just dribbling out. I want to pee like a normal person again. I am also tired of the vaginal discharge and constant wet panties. I'm tired of it being the middle of the night and I can't sleep. I flip from side to side and it feels like there is this huge weight on me. I'm tired of my clothes not fitting. I've had to buy extra large maternity clothes this pregnancy. Large pants are too tight and squish my belly, but the XL ones fall off. Nothing really fits right. Sometimes I don't know how I'm gonna leave the house. But ultimately I'm tired of the stress and responsibility too. I'm often worried about something it seems. Now I'm worried about the baby being breech, but before that I was worried about GD and preterm labor. I KNOW there will be new responsibilities and worries once the baby is born, but at least I won't be the main one to worry about them. He will be on the outside of my body and I won't constantly be the main one to take care of him, like I feel I am now. I just feel like so much is on my shoulders. I feel so very responsible for him, and it is making me stressed and even more tired than I already am. I am envious of others sometimes. Those women who hardly gain weight, who never have morning sickness, who exercise, and eat oh so well. They don't have backpain, trouble sleeping, few BH contractions, etc. I always thought that my pregnancies would be different. Especially when it came to weight gain and exercise. I had no idea how my body would respond to being pregnant. My normally fit self has been replaced by an immobilized blob. I truly feel like my body and sometimes my mind have been hijacked or possessed. I feel so fortunate and excited to be having another child, but damn am I miserable too.

 

[starlein26]

Yeah...I'm definitely reaching my end point...which, from what I can remember, is sooner than with ds. This part of pregnancy SUCKS. I'm not sleeping well at all anymore and feel aboslutely drained by the end of the day. But like Karen I love, love, love sweet smelling newborns, especially my own...

 

[AppleOrangePear]

Being completly honest here

I wish i had hard kicks even with DS1 they were soft and more wavelike

I DONT LIKE recently having to get up a ton at night to pee i feel like as soon as i drift off to sleep im having to pee again.

For me this pregnancy is going by sooooooooo darn fast.. almost scary.. well not but im sure ya KWIM> I start to think how things may change with our strong rhythms we maintain with Kai etc....

I still have energy however if i DONT Take a NAP OMG I feel like I AM DRUGGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Majority of the time i take a 2.5 hr nap with Kai.. Now i wonder and pray i will be able to nap still with 2 kids.. ( OH dont tell me this WONT happen

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Michele

 

[ColoradoKat]

OMama and everyone- It is so nice to know I am not alone in all of this. This is the first message board I have ever been a part of and I am so grateful that I did. And I realized that I forgot to mention the need to change my underwear 10x a fricking day! I get out of the shower, dry off, put on a clean dry pair and within 30 minutes they are wet. Part CM part sweat, probably because of my 150 degree internal body temperature! My husband can't even stand to have me touch him, he very sweetly says that I am burning a whole in his skin!

I know the reward of all this is so worth it, but feeling like a big blob sucks!

 

[chaibaby]

Awwww....sorry you're having a rough pregnancy at times. I feel the same way too someitmes. My upper ribs have been so so sore and I can feel myself getting really testy with my husband sometimes. PLUS, I haven't worked since February and its putting stress on our relationship. No one wanted to hire a full time or part time chiropractor who would be going on maternity leave four months later. So, its frustrating!

BUT, I do keep in mind that I am doing the most important, beautiful, wonderful thing a woman could ever experience and that helps put things in perspective.

Can you go and do something special for yourself right now? I couldn't believe how much better I felt yesterday when I actually blow-dried my hair, curled it, painted my nails, and threw on a little make up.. I felt like a new woman. Maybe go out, get a tea, get a pedicure, and just have some time to yourself? You deserve it!!!!

 

[crunchymamatobe]

Yeah. I am liking being pregnant. A lot. I love feeling the baby inside and feeling my DP feeling the baby. But I really could do without the constant bloody noses and the nasty hip pain and the having to ask my DP to get me things that are on the floor because the hip pain gets worse when I squat/bend over and the state of my vegetable patch (hard to weed when you can't squat/bend over) and the baby keeping me awake at night and waking up to pee three or four times a night...

 

[caricandothis]

Ahh this is such a nice thread to read, makes me not feel so bad for feeling the way I do.

I was one who always said "I love being pregnant! It's great!" Well, that was before this pregnancy. I'm so incredibly uncomfortable I just cannot wait to get this wonderful little boy out of me so I can have my "normal" body back. I am sick to death of acid reflux, feeling like every time I even think about burping that I'm going to throw up. I've never had this before in my life and it SUCKS!!!

I can't sleep at night. I toss and turn with a gazillion things running thru my head--my brain just won't shut off! Then, during the day when I really need to be alert and awake, my brain won't wake up?!! Then when I complain to dh that I'm tired he says "well, you slept like a rock last night, I don't know why you're tired?"

: No, dumbarse, YOU slept like a rock, snoring in my face all night, how would you know?!

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And oooohhhhh the irritability.

I'm grumped out at everyone, even my precious little almost 3 yr old (who I might add is going thru an ear piercing whining stage right now, of course). There are some days that I don't even want to speak because I know what comes out of my mouth is not going to do anyone a bit of good. Ugh.

On the other hand, of course, I still feel blessed. I know that too soon I will be thinking back, missing my big belly and wishing baby boy was still safe inside of me. I know that this stage of my life is coming too quickly to an end and I will miss it terribly.

 

[mamajandtheboys]

you aren't alone. i treasure this babe -- i do! and she will complete our family. but she is kicking my @$&!!!!

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i'm ready to be done. 30 weeks today. hoping i can make it the next 8 or so weeks...

 

[taliasully]

I have been thinking I am the biggest complainer on the planet, but SERIOSLY , this sucks ! It does seem so early to be THIS uncomfortable.
I guess if we just keep coming here to remind ourselfs that we are not alone writhing in self pitty we can make it another 8 %^#^&*& weeks, ( OR more god help me)
AND as so many others said, the final outcome will be soooooo worth it