[b-girl]

Today was not a good day.

I went to the mall and felt the urge to curse every woman who walked passed me with an infant in her arms.... maybe it's the holidays... maybe it's the fact that when we first started trying I was imagining myself beautifully pregnant at this time of the year.

I've felt a sense of jealousy before but not like I felt today.

At least I have mdc to come and vent.

I'm sure these feelings will pass.

 

[KellyTTC#1]

I understand your feelings. You're not alone. It will come and go.

I have those days too when I feel like I just keep running into pregnant women or women with infants. I've never seen a baby at my doctor's office before and the last time I was there, 3 mothers and newborns were there... and one asked me when I was having children... I didin't have the heart to say that I was there to speak with my doctor about the next steps for TTC because it had been well over a year.

 

[MaerynPearl]

The ladies at work know that if someone comes in with a baby... to warn me ahead of time. I get the fever so bad and with dBF being gone 95% of every year... its hard.

 

[kparker]

Saw a very pregnant woman when I was shopping for fleece to make scarves today... my best friend is newly pregnant... a lot of friends from back in school are posting holiday photos of their kids... one friend's wife just had their first daughter...

Knowing it's not for me really does suck sometimes. I must admit, I get so jealous and sad about it all that occasionally I come home and cry about it.

Eventually it passes. But it does suck when it strikes me.

 

[Stevi]

I feel it more when I see a woman with multiple kids and pregnant, or just multiple kids. It doesn't seem to hit me when I see just one child or just a pregnant woman.

Well, it did once. The day of my miscarriage I saw a pregnant woman attached to an oxygen tank, carrying a pack of cigarettes... THAT upset me!

I guess I've been trying so long for one, that I don't begrudge that 'one' to anyone else. But two or more... the green begins to flow in my viens...

 

[alicewyf]

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Originally Posted by kparker Saw a very pregnant woman when I was shopping for fleece to make scarves today... my best friend is newly pregnant... a lot of friends from back in school are posting holiday photos of their kids... one friend's wife just had their first daughter... Knowing it's not for me really does suck sometimes. I must admit, I get so jealous and sad about it all that occasionally I come home and cry about it. Eventually it passes. But it does suck when it strikes me.

Love you, Kparker.

 

[kparker]

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Originally Posted by alicewyf Love you, Kparker.

Love you too alice

even though I am jealous of you sometimes

 

[Stevi]

((hugs)) Kparker, you'll be joining us soon. If you decide to start looking for a donor, I found all of mine on Craigslist!

But my secret hope is that you get that surprise BFP!!

 

[GuavaGirl]

I'm really glad to see all of these responses on here. I was starting to think there was something wrong with me. The other day I noticed a friend on myspace was 8 months pregnant and I was excited, but then like 30 seconds later it turned into jealously, then crying. My DH was like...."uh.....is this normal....maybe you should ask the ladies on that forum." (it was funny)

 

[njsummer01]

It's nice to hear that others feel this same way. We just saw my beautifully pregnant SIL. I'm so happy for them, but would love that for myself so much, it can be depressing.

Our plan is to adopt again if TTC doesn't work, so honestly the thing that depresses me the most is thinking about all the paperwork and issues on DS's non-vax status that I'm going to have to deal with in an adoption. I love adoption, LOVE Ds and will love to adopt again - I just wish I could have the experience of pregnancy and those precious infant months we miss out on with adoption ( and of course, no social workers prying into our lives would be nice too!)

 

[tofutti]

b girl -- i totally understand where you are coming from! we ttc'd, charted and temped for THREE YEARS before getting PG, and that first one failed rather dramatically and miserably (long story). then after a break, acupuncture, an iui and 1 round of clomid we got our beautiful kiddo.

one thing i realize NOW (wish i knew it then) is that when i would see these women and their babies everywhere.......and i would feel soooo jealous and also angry, i guess i never stopped to think that so many of these women likely went through misc., infertility, years of ttc, ivf/iui/donors etc and god knows what to get to where they are. i always thought it must be so easy for everyone else, what the heck is my problem...but now i know better.

of course there are those friends who seem to get PG at the drop of a hat, but we won't think about them, now, shall we

you will get there, maybe not right away, but you will, eventually, and when you have your baby, no one will be able to tell by looking at you that it wasn't easy for you either. weird huh!

i NEVER thought i would get there, and i did

you will.