After a vaginal delivery, my postpartum bleeding hardly amounted
to anything - very much as you described yours.
I wondered if it was somehow related to the stillbirth.
My first period was about 2 or 2 1/2 weeks later . . . very light
compared to my usual heavy flow, and so was the next one about
26 days (my normal cycle length) later.
The third one was my normal very heavy flow, which I took to mean
that my body, anyway, was "healed."
It was right after that that we conceived Will, in the same month that
his big brother J.T. was conceived the year before.
Your feelings are ALL SO NORMAL, Mama.
I remember feeling all that. For a while, I wanted to run miles away
every time I saw a baby - and at the same time, I wanted to snatch
them up and savor them and remind their parents just how lucky they
I know it's hard to believe now, but you WILL get back to happy, too.
It will just be . . . different.