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What was your birth experience like before PPD?

  • I had a great vaginal birth experience, exactly how I envisioned it.

    Votes: 37 30.3%
  • I had planned a UC/HB/birth center birth but ended up w/ a hospital transfer & c-section.

    Votes: 4 3.3%
  • I had planned a UC/HB/birth center birth but ended up w/ a hospital transfer & interventions.

    Votes: 7 5.7%
  • I had planned a hospital birth but ended up w/ unwanted interventions (induction, drugs, c-sec).

    Votes: 29 23.8%
  • I planned a c-section but was disappointed with how it turned out.

    Votes: 3 2.5%
  • I planned a hospital/attended birth but accidentally UCed/

    Votes: 0 0.0%
  • I've had several different birth experiences but ended up with PPD anyways.

    Votes: 16 13.1%
  • I had a different unsatisfying birth experience.

    Votes: 9 7.4%
  • I had a birth that was different then I planned but I was very happy with it.

    Votes: 17 13.9%
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I hope this isn't insensitive, but I'm wondering if you mamas would help me understand PPD and when it set in for you. My family has a history of PPD and I'm wondering if there are contributing factors.<br><br>
What I'm wondering is if the birth experience played a part in triggering PPD for anyone, or if it was completely unrelated. My family has had a lot of traumatic, medicalized births and I'm wondering if that plays a part.<br><br>
Thanks in advance and I hope no one is offended by my question!<br><br>
Kristi
 

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I had PPD after my first baby and it was a traumatic birth experience. But who knows if it was the birth experience that did it? I was very young and full of impressions about how I should act/feel and who I could get help from. After my second and third babies (both great birth experiences) I had a little bit of the blues but knew myself better and was willing to get help.
 

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my birth experiance had EVERYTHING to do w/ ppd.<br><br>
I was on bedrest for the third trimester.<br>
above 10,000 feet in altitude<br>
hospitalized several times because I couldn't keep hydrated and my amniotic fluid never got above a 5<br>
induced at 33 weeks because my amniotic fluid was so low and placenta was calcified... doc refered to my uterus as a "hostile environment"<br>
had emergency section after 3 days of induction because the cord was doubled around his neck and once around his foot<br>
baby recitated for 20 minutes and flight-for-lifed to Denver to be at lower altitude. dh went with him. I was alone. Didn't meet my baby for over 48 hours!<br>
All that was enough to cause me some serious mental damage.
 

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Unrelated in my case but for others it definitely seems to play a role.
 

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I had a WONDERFUL homebirth experience!! It just doesn't make sense why I'm suffering so bad this time. But a big thing is I was hoping for & really thought this baby was a boy. I really wanted my instincts to be right, but nope <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile"> . I've struggled so hard with these feelings of disappointment, but things are better now.
 

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This is really interesting. I appreciate your willingness to post, mamas!<br><br>
Kristi
 

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I only had PPD after my first daughter was born. It was a very short less than 3 hour labor, 3 pushes. I tore vaginally, but I did with all three children. Other than that, there were no issues and the birth went well. PPD was not recognized until my daughter was 9 months old and I was in the mental hospital. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/gloomy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Gloomy">:
 

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There are quite a number of possible risk factors for PPD -- probably the biggest one is a history of depression at any other time in your life. Complicated pregnancies and traumatic birth experiences can contribute in a big way, but there are women with traumatic birth experiences who don't get PPD, and women with peaceful waterbirths surrounded by loved ones who do.<br><br>
PPD is a bio-psycho-social phenomenon - that is, there are biological factors (and having a hx of PPD in other family members counts here), psychological factors (the mom's personality, other issues), and social factors (support network, etc.) Predicting who will get ill isn't an exact science, and even laid back mamas with good support systems can get sick.<br><br>
In retrospect, we realized that I was symptomatic DURING my pregnancy with dd. My therapist at the time missed it, and I didn't see it myself. Now that I've been healthy for years, and am pregnant again, I can see how stressed/depressed/anxious I was when pg with dd. It got really bad after dd was born -- symptoms worsened while I was in the hospital, and hit a real crescendo when she was about 3 weeks old.<br><br>
My birth experience was intense -- very fast/strong back labor (start of contractions to full dilation in under 5 hours) and 4 hours of pushing. However, it was the birth I wanted -- very minimal interventions (IV fluids after hour 2 of pushing), CNM attended at a hospital where I was comfortable. 9lbs 2oz, no drugs. Yet, I was primed to get sick (symptoms during pregnancy), and then didn't sleep for DAYS, took prednisone to deal with PUPPP (gives me anxiety attacks) and general Type A personality stuff.<br><br>
This time will be different. I'm still at risk, but I have alot of things in place (including being on a med that works for me!) to make things go more smoothly.<br><br>
hth!<br><br>
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I was never diagnosed with PPD but I'm convinced that I had it. I had an easy vaginal delivery, better than I could've asked for. No complications for me or the baby. I think it was just too much for me to handle when I got home. Even with a very supportive hubby.<br><br>
Eventually I started getting extremely achy joints, arms & legs. I finally saw a chiro. for it and he treated me, showed me various exercises and stretches and put me on Fish Oil and B-Complex vitamins. Within a WEEK I felt "the fog" lifting. I told my DH that I finally knew for sure that something was wrong with me because of how much BETTER I felt. Without even realizing how bad it was before.<br><br>
Anyway, maybe sometimes it's related but for me it really wasn't.
 

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Pleased with my birthing experience...in fact, it was such an empowering experience for me, that it was the one thing that i hung on to when i was at my lowest point.<br><br>
I feel that my ppd was a result of a couple of things- then number one reason being just that I have a history of anxiety disorder/depression. The second reason being that my current situation isn't exactly what I had envisioned (always planned to be a SAHM, instead I WOH full-time supporting our family...)<br><br>
For some reason I was totally caught off guard with the ppd...I really didn't expect that to happen, but it did. I guess now, my biggest worry is that it will happen again when we decide to have a second child...
 

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I had a planned home birth and hospital transfer with ppd.<br><br>
My second was a successful home birth with no ppd. However, I also ate the placenta, so the experience may or may not have played a role.
 

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I know for me it played a HUGE role leading to my PPD.....I am almost certain it had set in even before we left the hospital but we all just blamed it on the horrible experiance I just had and lack of sleep.<br><br>
My second dd I had a free-standing birth center birth and it was WONDERFUL! There were some things ( totally out of anyones hands though) that didn't go the way I wanted or happen the way I wanted but overall it was more than I could have ever asked for and I was totally fine....no sign of PPD....although I did have a long case of the baby blues(about 8 weeks) but I know it was nothing more because I was happy, even when I was crying.
 

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my birth expierance was wonderfun with dd however shortley after her birth she was brought to the icu a hour from my home i ended up having to leave my son for 5 days at my home with mil to be with dd and it broke my heart. couldent stand that i couldent be with both kids as they both needed me- i feel thins started the depression along with the fact that during the icu stay i was very stressed, sleepdeprived, pumping every 2 hours, sitting on a metal stool . also when i got home with my dd i was surprised to find all she did was cry she was bf and botthefed which again was something i dident want but i had such a difficult time as my ds was 18 months and did everything bad whild i bf also my milk supply decreased. so icu, crying, lack or sleep, 2 kids under 2, not fully breastfeeding, calls for ppd
 

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Hi Mama2Be, will throw my 2 cents in too. I had a traumatic birth with dd and anxiety attacks/depression afterwards (and I think PTSD). The difficult birth definitely played a factor, plus all these bfing probs we were unable to overcome (so I was pumping every 3 hrs and not sleeping).... also the unrealistically high expectations and standards I set for myself. Dd was also colicky, has always been a very intense child. I held her ALL THE TIME (incl. sling) and co-slept but she still cried and cried. Still does cry intensely for a bout every day (she's nearly 2). Some of my own previously unresolved traumas (though I thought I did years of therapy already for this stuff! GAH!) affects how I feel about myself as a mother, even today.<br><br>
We are TTC #2 and I am very aware and concerned that I will have mood issues again. Oh well, time to get the support team and supplements. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment">) Good luck.
 

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We didn't recognize it till #5 was 9 mos old. With him I had a great birth, the end of the pg was terrible, tons of stress. When he was born dh was all smiles and I remember wondering what the heck he was so happy about. I had just given birth and I was not happy to have my son. So I might have had it after #4. My labor with #4 was hellish. But I had a terrible birth with #2 also but didn't get depressed.<br><br>
I'm thinking mine was def hormonal cause eating my placenta after #6 cured me.
 

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I have had three great, natural births - all with midwives. Dd1 in hospital (planned that way), dd2 in a freestanding birth center and dd3 at home. All great experiences. Dd1's took the longest. Dd3 was OP so that was a little challenging.<br><br>
I had raging PPD with dd2. I was in the best shape for that one. She was the lightest of my three babies (8.5, 7.10, 8.6). She was also my shortest labor at just under ten hours.<br><br>
I don't think my labor/birth experience had anything to do with my PPD. I think the fact that she had colic - the only one of my three kids to have it - was what set off my PPD.<br><br>
Listening to your baby scream for 20 hours per day for four months is enough to send anyone off the deep end.
 

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i had a very traumatic hospital birth the first time, and no PPD. the second time i had a birth center birth that didn't go as planned (water) but i was very happy (baby came suddenly, i caught him myself, wonderful bonding with husband, perfect night sleeping in the center family bed) and 4 weeks later i'm staring PPD in the face.
 

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I have had both a medicalized very interventionistic birth with my first, and two very ideal waterbirths with my second and third child, and have persistant PPD either way. I also have dealt with antenatal depression during each pregnancy, and suffered from depression off and on while younger. For me, I don't feel the birth experience had anything to do with my depression--just the wacky way my body reacts to every darned hormone change.
 

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My birth experience played into my PPD, but I also had problems with depression before. I planned a low intervention birth in a hospital (I have to laugh at that now) with a CNM, I got a CNM/OB coerced c-section without labor for "big baby" based on an U/S. I have PPD and PTSD. My therapist did research on C-sections and PPD and PTSD and found that 28% of mom's with c-sections (in her study) experienced PTSD, while only about 1.5% of the vaginal birth moms did. Now that is significant. The PPD though didn't seem to differ much between the two. I am sure that a lot of PPD is your hormones and chemical makeup of your body.
 

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Mine arent there. I planned a hosp vaginal birth with #1 and ended up with a c/s and with #2 I planned a hosp vbac and ended up with a c/s.<br><br>
PPD both times.
 
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