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I have an almost 4 month old dd and a 12 yo dd. I have signs of ppd but I am not sure if thats what it is. I became very irritated with my dd1 and my dss while I was pregnant while I was in an "I hate everyone" stage. That faded and then returned after dd2 was born. I have worked very hard to get past this but still get so angry at them, and somtimes irritated that they come home from school. I don't know if it ties into my body feeling like I am not healing and it takes more work to take care of them than dd2 or if its ppd anger displaced on them because I had become completely free to do what I wanted while they are at school and lost that when dd2 came.<br><br>
There is another possibility too. Durring birth I had my placenta get stuck antirior (I am now glad that I haddn't planned for a home birth). I also had a feeling like I should have been pushing out another. When the dr finnaly got the placenta out there was a little thing where it was attached. I later found out that these things happening can be a sign of a disapearing twin, along with the fact that I have been producing twice as much milk as she can take. Anyway I don't know if maybe my subcontious knows that there should have been another and therefore sends me through a mourning prosses.<br><br>
The fact is that I love my baby and my other children but feel very empty and drained alot. I don't know if it is ppd or something else.
 

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(((hugs))) It's so hard having a new baby! I wanted to ask you this - to give you something to think about... how well are YOUR needs being met? I know that I find myself feeling really angry, especially if I haven't gotten enough sleep or if I just need a break, to get a little time away, or even watch a favorite TV show in peace, or call a friend for a good long phone conversation! It's so hard to get your own needs met as a new mama...<br><br>
I don't know if what you are feeling is PPD or just being a bit burned out... can you think about your needs and see if they are being met at all, or at least partially? When I'm feeling depleted (of sleep or anything else), I really get pissed at everything and I feel so much better once my needs are met...<br><br>
I think having a difficult birth experience just gives us more to heal from, and cope with, after the birth.. and that can take some time too. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> Be patient with yourself, Mama...
 

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i felt really depressed and angry after my dd was born. what helped me the most was talking to a counselor on a regular basis, and taking zoloft. have you considered either of those options?<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2"> mama
 

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A baby is hard no matter what the circumstances are - and when you have some issues, it gets even harder. Give yourself permission to talk with someone about it, okay?
 
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