<p> I recently posted in another topic area and someone mentioned PPD which lead me here. I have a 21 mo old son and 2.5 mo old twin girls (born 5 weeks early). I was fine after DS's birth and for the first couple months after the twins birth (when they slept all day and I had help d/t c- sec recovery). In the past couple weeks they "woke up". They scream pretty much all day, they dont smile or babble or do any normal baby stuff. My DS is understandably stressed about the crying and the fact that he is ignored most of the day and he throws things and hits me and the babies. I find myself obsessing over the twins development, and screaming at my toddler - I am so, so angry all the time. I alternate between despising the kids and feeling terribly guilty that I cant meet their endless needs. I fantasize all day about just walking out the door and not going back, or calling CPS and asking them to take the kids. I feel like I'd be fine if the girls would stop screaming and start smiling and I've never had any real issues with depression - though do have a history of anxiety based insomnia. I wonder if this is PPD or just a relatively normal reaction to a crazy situation - esp since I felt fine until things got chaotic? And if I were to go on meds would I be able to keep bf'ing? Thanks for any info or advice.</p>