[bauchtanz]

After I had DD I had PPD. I was totally not intrested in her, to the point that I asked Dh about putting her up for adoption. My Dr. recommended a counselr to me, which I never ended up going to see because we didn't have the $$$$.

Once I went back to work it got better (she also started sleeping through the night).
DD is now 8 months and I think it is back? I can't stand to be around her, she annoys the hell out of me. Which I know is wrong because that is how I felt before, then I felt better. I am so overwhelemd by work that I can't get anything done, I am overwhelemd at home (we are in the middle of remodling our only bathroom and we have a deadline to get it done). We are new to the community and know no one, so there is no one to watch DD if I could even afford an after hours Dr. appointment (DH works 3rd shift - so he sleeps till 6:30-7:30 each night). Dh has been working tons of overtime so I am alone with DD all but maybe 2 hours a day (and that time I use to get things done). My house is a disaster and I have been traveling home on the weekends (to my parents 2 hours away) each weekend because my mother is an elected offical running for reellection and needs our help for doorknocking and such each weekend (and it isnt and option to say no). Every free momment I have at work I am pumping - so I don't have time to run basic errands, like refilling prescriptions on vitiamins.
So I am trying to figure out if it is all these events, or PPD, or both that is making me tired, depressed, stressed, annoyed, and overwhelemd.

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[mchugabrook]

I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. You definitely sound very overwhelmed with work and home/family life and you do need some more support. If there is any way possible for you to go to a counselor I think it would really help-someone that could help you address any depression you may be having and help you find ways to cope with the demands of your busy life. It sounds like you are pretty alone a lot of the time as well. I know that must be hard. You need more help and support. You may very well be having some additional depression. You didn't mention if you ever really recovered from the initial bout with PPD. I encourage you not to wait until you feel worse or until you figure out what is causing your feelings. It could be detrimental to you and your family. Find a way to talk to someone so you can feel good about being with your little one. Managing family and work is hard enough. Please take care of yourself! I'm sending good thoughts your way and a big hug. Take care.

 

[AsYouWish]

I am so sorry that you are struggling so much. First off, your health and family is of primary importance. That means, you need to tell your mother that she will have to do without your help until further notice. If your mother loves you, she will agree that you do not need anymore pressure in your life. And, frankly, if she can't see why you need to say no to helping her, then she doesn't deserve your help. If your mother doesn't get re-elected that is unfortunate, but if you don't get the help/support that you need that could be disastrous. There probably isn't a way to immediately change your work situation or your remodeling situation, but you can immediately change the time and energy you expend helping your parents. Saying no to your parents HAS to be an option because saying no to yourself and your dd isn't one. After you tell your mother that you can't help her for the time being, then you need to run straight to a counselor. There was a time in my own life (struggling with depression and numerous outside pressures) when I put off getting professional help when it was desperately warranted, and it led to a major suicidal crisis, the effects of which my dh and I are still dealing with -- and we don't even have kids yet! Please, please, please do whatever is necessary to streamline your life and talk to a counselor. I will be thinking about you.

 

[newmommy]

PPD can last during the first year. I think you would feel alot better if you got some Me Time.

Can you get some Me Time? Just working working working will definetly burn you out.

*My* presciption for you: Go see the doctor AND get some Me Time ( A Full Day for YOU)

 

[lauren]

PPD is very hard and difficult to go through alone. Did youknow that we also have this PPD forum here?

http://www.mothering.com/discussions...splay.php?f=28

I didn't know if it is primarily a PPD concern or a working mama concern (or both). Just wanted you to be aware that this subforum is available.