Hi there,
I was in BF hell for the first ten weeks of my babe's life. I see yours was born in February, so she's 5-6 weeks old at most, right?
In case this helps... I feel my PPD got a lot worse because babe & I had such a difficult time BFing. She would latch on and stay on for hours at a time. That meant I was stuck on the couch, sitting in bed, wherever, for hours at a time. I could not (have not) mastered feeding in the sling.
So being stuck with no-one around was a huge stressor. Then all but one of the few visitors I had didn't understand feeding on demand, so that was an additional stressor. Hubby's working overtime was an additional stressor. Not being able to clean, work, unpack (we just moved) was an additional stressor. Babe needing constant feeding meant we couldn't leave the house (we tried, and it was another voyage through hell). Additional stress from that.
See how the stress adds up? It was a cumulative effect on me. The thing I had to work on (besides the BFing) was delegating tasks, asking for help, asking for visits from likeminded folks, getting online to get advice, choosing time over money (whenever possible) and generally learning how to chill out.
I am still in a depression but it's lessening. I went to an intuitive healer yesterday (was skeptic but hopeful) and it was helpful. I feel I've got some of my old self back. Still working on it though...
April
PS We're still breastfeeding successfully and babe is 6.5 months.