Tomorrow is the day I started spotting and then bleeding in the preg I started a year ago, in which I stayed pg the longest. This week is going by so slowly. I had my first appointment last week; my mw set up an appointment for me with an OB on Monday, to do bloodwork I guess -- she wasn't very clear about it. I find myself not wanting to go. If my vitex is doing the trick (and I'm certainly pg a lot longer than the three previous losses), I just don't want to bother. Dh was just promoted at work and can't get the time off; I have three kids with me. I don't want to tell them about the preg yet. The app't is at a hospital; I'm not crazy about taking my kids to a hospital during flu season in a major city. I might be able to find someone to look after my older two, but my toddler wouldn't go for it. I don't know if they'll want to do an u/s, but I sure don't, and I'm not really in the mood to go to an app't and just have to fight what they want. Ugh. I'm not sure if I should cancel. Every time I try to sit and think about it, I get upset and teary.