[ShineliketheSon]

Well I couldn't even get back on the message board yesterday due to reading the title and brief overview of another heartbreaking post. I couldn't get myself to read it or even come back on as it is too hard emotionally for me at this stage to do so...So I have a link to the EDD rollcall in my mailbox, as well as a link to the birth announcments and this one. I will keep checking these ...other than that I'm not going to be checking the message boards, including daily chats since it changes everyday. I just have to protect my emotions at this point in my pregnancy. I don't know for how long, but I know at least for today.

The baby moved some yesterday but back to normal last night and this morning so not worried about that anymore. I am 39 weeks tomorrow...with no real signs of actual labor...this baby has a mind of her own! Definatly allready setting herself apart from her sister!!!

We ended up at the zoo yesterday as it was soooo nice here. We had a GREAT time. Then came home around 2pm and DD basically cried in opposition to everything we said the rest of the day. Finally at bedtime while sitting on the sofa hearing her screaming while DH got her ready for bed, I just broke down bawling. I coudln't take it anymore, I hate hearing her cry. DD came down to say goodnight and saw how upset I was and we both cried for a few moments and I told her it made me sooo sad that she gets upset and cries all the time. She said she was sorry she made me sad and that we will do better tomorrow...So sweet. It really bothered her that I was crying, maybe it'll help today be better?

I hope those who are close will have babies soon!!!

: And for those who need hugs...here you go!!!

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[Peony]

I totally understand. I read what I feel like, talk to select people, and ignore everything else. And yes, don't you wish children would come out like the first ones did!

I'm 39.5 weeks now, I can't believe I'm still pg, but here we are.

Wishing you all the best in protecting your mind set for the rest of the pg and birth.
Amy

 

[Murph12334]

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Totally understandable and I hope your dd is better today for you.

 

[Lindsay1234]

Shine -

I dont care if you read any of these posts as long as YOU post when you have that sweet baby!!!!!!

I understand too. This is a rough, uncontrollable time for all of us and we DO need to protect ourselves, the baby feels our emotions!!!

Sorry about the rough day. Isnt it funny when kids see our tears? Its like the Twilight Zone or something for them, they snap out of their funk instantly and try to help us with ours. When your dd gets older Im sure shell do what mine does, tries to distract me. The other day when I was upset she said "Mom, I forgot to ask, what kind of new car do you want? Tell me about it" lol!!!

Have a great day!!!!!

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[Latenightanarchy]

I kinda want to say this for everyone: we are strong! Find a positive thought and hang on to it for a bit. I can relate, been feeling very emotional/vulnerable lately. Everything seems to affect me and that is hard. I hope your feelings improve and you find some strength inside to know it's almost done and soon you'll be crying with JOY for that new baby! Almost there.

 

[Xerxella]

I don't blame you. I don't read any of the negative posts. I feel for people, I just can't read them. But, I know that, so I steer clear of all sad stories...

 

[BethSLP]

I totally understand how you feel and I think we need to do what's best for each of us emotionally. But I think its very important that all of the mamas on this DDC can express whatever is going on in their lives and receive support. I would never want our mamas who have experienced tragedies to feel like they cannot post for fear of scaring other pregnant mamas. (I know that is not what you were saying, but wanted to say that because some may feel that way).

Mischevium, MI Dawn, and all of the others who have lost along the way, you are in my heart every second. You are mamas just like all of us and we are here for you.

XOXO
B

 

[ShineliketheSon]

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Originally Posted by BethSLP I totally understand how you feel and I think we need to do what's best for each of us emotionally. But I think its very important that all of the mamas on this DDC can express whatever is going on in their lives and receive support. I would never want our mamas who have experienced tragedies to feel like they cannot post for fear of scaring other pregnant mamas. (I know that is not what you were saying, but wanted to say that because some may feel that way). Mischevium, MI Dawn, and all of the others who have lost along the way, you are in my heart every second. You are mamas just like all of us and we are here for you. XOXO B

This is not what I meant at all. I just wanted to explain my absense as I am a frequent poster and didn't want anyone thinking I was having baby or anything was wrong. I chose to step away to protect myself, I never would tell anyone else not to post what they are feeling just on the account of me. We are all free to post what we need to and to step away when need be without negitivity. I would hope and think that Mischevium, MI Dawn and the other gal know how I sad I have been for them and supportive through the posts I've written to them and just the person I have shown I am online.

I'm back on today cause I needed the support again, and I have been able to move past those emotions I had yesterday, but believe me they change frequently these days...so I guess if you don't here from me don't think anything, just may be me needing a break without actually stating it again as I wouldn't want anyone to think I was not being sympathetic to those grieving mamas.

 

[Murph12334]

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Being pregnant is a very emotional time in general and gets even more so closer to the end

 

[BethSLP]

Shineliketheson,

I totally knew that was not what you were saying. I just wanted to clarify for those that had posted "negative" or heart breaking posts that we love and support them, because it can be a sensitive thing (i.e. not wanting to make others upset, but needing to share your experience, etc.)

I put that portion in parentheses specifically to say that I knew you didn't intend your post to mean anything of that sort, but simply that I wanted to say a word of support for those who wrote of tragedies.

I'm not sure if you remember the story Charlotte's Grace that was printed in an older issue of Mothering Magazine. It was an absolutely beautiful story of a mama sharing her heartbreaking stillbirth story. Many letters came in to the magazine criticizing them for printing it and telling how they could not share that issue with a pregnant friend because it was too "disturbing."

I reacted strongly to that whole episode, and in recalling that I wanted to again validate that all mamas have support here regardless of their happy or unhappy endings.

Again, we all know you are a great mama and I didn't think you were saying that at all. Just thought what I said needed to be said.

I also know how hard the last few weeks of pregnancy can be emotionally and will make wishes for your continued peace as you anxiously await your little one.

Hugs,
Beth