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So this is going to be LONG....with lots of questions.....and a lot of what ifs....and prob some ramblings too, so I apologize in advance!<br><br>
I want so desperately to become a midwife. A lot has to do with this over whelming feeling that has been growing in my heart over the last few years, and now it has reached a point where I feel like I might just explode with the joyous feeling whenever i think about it<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">. I think I feel this way because of the birth exp I've had (3 sections, 1 BAD exp, 2 okay) but with the last one I wanted so desperately to have a hba2c, but ended up resigning myself to another section after talking to my dh and ob and looking at my records. I want to change things for other women in my area who are told one thing, and then find out later they were lied to. (like I was.) I want to give them another option. We don't have a whole lot of midwives which service my area (Flint, MI.) Sometimes I think I was supposed to have the birth experience I did so that it would make me think the way I do now, and that in turn would put me on this path I find myself on today.<br><br>
I was planning on starting back to school to pursue my RN then continue to CNM, but I'm having second thoughts now, and think maybe I want to go the CPM route. Here is where I have TONS of questions as far as what way I should go because of my thoughts on the whole process of birth...<br><br>
I believe pregnancy is a natural, not a medical event. The less meddling the better. I don't want a dr looking over my shoulder telling the mom shes on the clock. I don't want to have to have a mom transfer to an OB because she is x days past her due date. I don't want to deal with all the other stuff pertaining to getting my RN, I'm not interested in all that, just Labor/delivery and well woman care. I want to be able to provide women with a safe alternative to dealing with the hospitals and all their "policies." Ultimately I don't want to work in the hospital enviroment, I believe that is for sick people, not healthy women having healthy babies. I want to attend to women and their family in THEIR home where they are most comfortable. However, I want to know that I will still be able to make some kind of a living because dh wouldn't be working full time when I was done with whatever route i choose to take. I don't have any idea about insurance premiums for either route. I don't know how hard it would be to find a preceptor for either route since there are not that many CPM's in my area, and only 1 practicing CNM. I don't know how busy the CPM's have been in my area, but I know the CNM has been getting pretty busy lately.<br><br>
So, if you got through all that, what do you think? Should I go the CNM route or the CPM route because of my way of thinking? Any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated.<br><br>
Like I said, I feel like I have this urge growing inside of me, and DH telling me to just DO IT (sorry if that brought up Nike in anyones mind<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngtongue.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Stick Out Tongue">) I feel like there is something calling me to do this and it is almost like the feeling has taken on a life and personality of its own in my heart (as weird as that sounds that is the only way I can really describe it.)
I want so desperately to become a midwife. A lot has to do with this over whelming feeling that has been growing in my heart over the last few years, and now it has reached a point where I feel like I might just explode with the joyous feeling whenever i think about it<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">. I think I feel this way because of the birth exp I've had (3 sections, 1 BAD exp, 2 okay) but with the last one I wanted so desperately to have a hba2c, but ended up resigning myself to another section after talking to my dh and ob and looking at my records. I want to change things for other women in my area who are told one thing, and then find out later they were lied to. (like I was.) I want to give them another option. We don't have a whole lot of midwives which service my area (Flint, MI.) Sometimes I think I was supposed to have the birth experience I did so that it would make me think the way I do now, and that in turn would put me on this path I find myself on today.<br><br>
I was planning on starting back to school to pursue my RN then continue to CNM, but I'm having second thoughts now, and think maybe I want to go the CPM route. Here is where I have TONS of questions as far as what way I should go because of my thoughts on the whole process of birth...<br><br>
I believe pregnancy is a natural, not a medical event. The less meddling the better. I don't want a dr looking over my shoulder telling the mom shes on the clock. I don't want to have to have a mom transfer to an OB because she is x days past her due date. I don't want to deal with all the other stuff pertaining to getting my RN, I'm not interested in all that, just Labor/delivery and well woman care. I want to be able to provide women with a safe alternative to dealing with the hospitals and all their "policies." Ultimately I don't want to work in the hospital enviroment, I believe that is for sick people, not healthy women having healthy babies. I want to attend to women and their family in THEIR home where they are most comfortable. However, I want to know that I will still be able to make some kind of a living because dh wouldn't be working full time when I was done with whatever route i choose to take. I don't have any idea about insurance premiums for either route. I don't know how hard it would be to find a preceptor for either route since there are not that many CPM's in my area, and only 1 practicing CNM. I don't know how busy the CPM's have been in my area, but I know the CNM has been getting pretty busy lately.<br><br>
So, if you got through all that, what do you think? Should I go the CNM route or the CPM route because of my way of thinking? Any advice or insight would be greatly appreciated.<br><br>
Like I said, I feel like I have this urge growing inside of me, and DH telling me to just DO IT (sorry if that brought up Nike in anyones mind<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngtongue.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Stick Out Tongue">) I feel like there is something calling me to do this and it is almost like the feeling has taken on a life and personality of its own in my heart (as weird as that sounds that is the only way I can really describe it.)
