[Barefoot~Baker]

Hi everyone - i wish i could post more often -<br><br>
It's been 3 months. I'm over the first phase of anger and am torn between love, compassion, and confusion. I know that i still need this divorce though.<br><br>
will try to bbl!<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug">

 

[Phoenix~Mama]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> Stay strong.

 

[DeerMother]

Sure I'll be feeling this in a few months. Sending you strength and a clear mind to make sound and safe decisions.

 

[Theia]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> Stay the course. These feelings will pass too. Are you able to get counseling with anyone where you could get help processing these feelings? I'm glad to see an update from you.

 

[Barefoot~Baker]

Thank you.<br><br>
The initial adrenaline rush after starting this process and kicking him out has worn off and I'm just crushed now. I still love him so much!!! Why does he have to be such a screwed up person??? Look at my user id name, my whole identity has been engulfed in being wife and mother.<br><br>
I keep stopping myself from writing emotional emails to him or calling him. I'm so exhausted. I'm so blessed to have my house but we're screwed financially now, I don't know what's ahead. I'm drawing strength from the Lord and keep trusting in him that he'll take care of me and my kids.

 

[Peacemamalove]

many hugs to yoU! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2">s

 

[Isamama]

Stay strong! I know it hurts like crazy, but that will truly pass as well! ((HUG))

 

[Surfacing]

You can remind yourself WHY you left him, but yes, I don't think it's possible to avoid the grief and pain that comes with saying goodbye to the good along with the bad.<br><br>
It's worth it though, you and your kids are worth the effort and hard work. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">

 

[*MamaJen*]

Stay strong, mama. Would it help you to sit down and write a list of the top ten reasons why you left, or the ten worst things he did to you?