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My dh is away for 10 days, and things are going better than expected.....except for this morning. I am a yelling freak this morning!
First thing down the stairs this morning, ds tipped the dog water all over the floor, and I lost it. Yelling "NO!" at the top of my lungs!
: Even when I saw the frightened look in his eyes I kept yelling. Who does that to a baby??? Who would yell at a 17 month old that way for doing what is a natural, interesting thing to do? Pouring liquids is cool, we all like to do it!
There's more. He took a small metal dog bowl and whacked our smallest oldest dog right on the noggin. Instead of dealing with it calmly, I was off and yelling again. Now, this particular dog is 17 years old and can't hear him coming, so I'm especially protective of her. But how is shrieking at ds going to help her in the future? UGH.
I was doing so well the last couple of days. I am so dispirited with my innability to stay calm. I am seeking therapy and will soon start medication, I have chronic depression
, but I am so sad about my innability to do GD effectively when it matters. I awyas seem to freak out when it is the exact time to use GD or no discipline at all. Why punish him for spilling water for God's sake?
I am not necessarily looking for advice, although it would be greatly appreciated, just needed some shoulders to lean on. I feel like a monster and this is SOOOOOO not the mom I want to be.


There's more. He took a small metal dog bowl and whacked our smallest oldest dog right on the noggin. Instead of dealing with it calmly, I was off and yelling again. Now, this particular dog is 17 years old and can't hear him coming, so I'm especially protective of her. But how is shrieking at ds going to help her in the future? UGH.
I was doing so well the last couple of days. I am so dispirited with my innability to stay calm. I am seeking therapy and will soon start medication, I have chronic depression

I am not necessarily looking for advice, although it would be greatly appreciated, just needed some shoulders to lean on. I feel like a monster and this is SOOOOOO not the mom I want to be.