Okay, so I'm a SAHM to my one year old. I am so blessed to be able to be home with her and I love every minute of it. Before having her, I was very independent, ambitious, and had good income. I had all intentions on returning to work at first, but I just can't stomach the thought of putting her in daycare or letting the in-laws babysit. My family is over an hour away so that's out of the question too. I've mentioned to my hubby about doing part-time work (I'm a massage therapist/doula) now that our daughter is a little older and he just wants me to continue staying home full time. I get kind of excited knowing I could possibly incorporate work back into my life and that the money my parents spent on college won't be a complete waste. I would also like to know I could balance the whole being a mother and having a career thing. But now we've been kinda TTC#2 bc we both agree that we want our daughter to have a sibling close in age. I'm all for the idea of having another and we are able to afford it, even without me working. I just have this inner conflict with myself bc I know if we have another baby my chances of being able to work soon will be quite slim. Is this selfish thinking? I mean, being a mother is what is most important to me but I also have other goals I am striving to reach. Eventually I want to be self-employed and have a home business. I just feel more balanced when I do my work, and I would also like to know I could somewhat provide for my family if need be. I'm still young and I try to remind myself of that and that babies aren't little forever. I don't know..I just need some type of support, advice, or encouragement. I tend to get pretty down on myself if I think about this too much. Thanks ahead of time for any replies.