Sorry it this will be a gloomy post. I just need to get these thoughts out... dd1 is almost 7 and dd2 is almost 5. Our struggles are with dd1. Dh and I wanted to hs our kids from birth. We both had only OK ps experience and were not happy with what ps had become. Cutting out all the "fun stuff", much longer days, larger class sizes etc. dd1 has spend some time is ps, 2 months K and again 3 months of 1st at a different school. The social aspect was too much for her. She would come home in tears and be moody for hrs each night. After taking her out of ps, she is a very different child, more happy (but still a serious child). BUT hosing is proving to be frustrating... for me, for her, for sister. dh likes the hsing life, he gets a happy child after work and he doesn't have to MAKE her do homework. dd1 won't do anything academic. She is "naturally" at a K level in writing, reading, OK at math.... her reasoning and creativity are amazing!!! so there are positives. It strains our relationship when we sit down to do any school like work. Even if its only for 10 minutes, dd1 acts like its pulling teeth. The dream of hsing is not becoming a reality. I envisioned lots of field trips, reality: we got burnt out of the museum very quickly, weather is too nasty 7 months of the year to be outside, so the zoo, parks, beaches have to wait until summer anyways. Everything costs SO MUCH. dc are in an art and dance class. Those 2.5 hrs/week of "class socialization" is all we can afford. We have tried to mesh with a hs groups, but what we find is either religious or older kids. To sum it up, we were bored this year. Lots of time at home... dc play well together, but I am starting to see the negative effects of dd2 being bosses around by dd1 ALL day, and not being able to think for herself. And when dd1 does interact with kids her age or older she doesn't know how to NOT be the boss. I need some me time. I NEED to loose the 60 lbs I gained after having kids. We joined a gym with a "kids club child care" but dc HATE go there because they says "its full of screaming babies" which honestly it is. dd1 does not go to school. She says "all I do is sit and do work sheets and some kids are mean and loud". dd2 loved preschool (we did a co-op this past year) and I think she would like K well enough. Any thoughts?