[mamapajama]

robbed<br><br>
good-bye beautiful baby<br>
good-bye dreams of you and your life which was to be so entwined in my own.<br>
Good-bye chubby cheeks and gummy smiles that will never exist in my world.<br>
good-bye maternity clothes.<br>
good-bye pregnancy books.<br>
good-bye pregnant friends.<br>
good-bye to my heart overflowing with love and hope for who you will be.<br>
good-bye to my summer plans.<br>
good-bye to my laugh and my smile and my belief that my body is a healthy one.<br><br>
Good-bye to all these months of my life behind me and ahead of me as I walk forward with tears, always tears and try to find meaning for who you might have been and why you didn't get to be: My daughter.<br><br>
And I wish I could hold that piece of my heart that died with you. I wish I could somehow erase all of this, but then you wouldn't have existed at all not even for a short time. And maybe that would have been worse.

 

[FMS619]

Mamapajama,<br>
That was beautiful...and so reflects how I'm feeling many days as well. Take care of yourself. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">

 

[pycelan]

I have to agree with FMS. Beautiful...and my thoughts exactly. {{{{HUGS}}}}

 

[scarletjane]

Yes, so beautiful. and so heartbreaking. I really resonate with your words.. I too am so glad my beautiful daughter existed for the short time that she did, but wow.. the heartbreak and grief that have ensued because of that short existence. I know, mama. My heart breaks with you. I wish I could hug you and let you cry on my shoulder.<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
i'm sending you strength.

 

[pauletoy]

Wow, you really put into words everything I have been feeling. Thank you so much for sharing.<br><br>
I am so sorry we have all been on this journey of heartache. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">

 

[CherryBomb]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2">

 

[M.Q.]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br>
-MQ