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i have lurked here a lot and now that i am at about 12 weeks i feel better about posting.<br>
you can read my siggy to get an idea of WHERE i am at on my journey of motherhood.<br><br>
i feel blessed to have this miracle and quite surprised!<br>
i know there are a few of us who are due in NOV and we are still healing from a loss.<br><br>
anyone else want to pipe up so that we can just know we are here together?
 

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I had a miscarriage last June. I've been pretty parnoid this pregancy but so far things are going well. I saw the OB last week and saw the heartbeat so I'm a bit more relaxed. I still worry cause I'm having very few pregancy signs no real MS nothing sore I'm not as tired anymore. I obcessivly check for blood. Its getting easier as times passes but yes I still worry.<br><br>
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yup, 2 post ds (almost 4)...one last spring, one last fall. Couple before him as well.<br><br>
I'm also obcessed with checking for blood. I can't wait to feel movement so I can breath a bit easier. Still no heartbeat by dobbler yet (retroverted uterus), but we have seen it a few times via u/s.<br><br>
The 12 week mark should give me some breathing room, but Im still being worked up for a bleeding/clotting disorder, and if I test pos again, I know I wont breath til the baby is safe and out of me.<br><br>
welcome, and extra special <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/fingersx.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="fingersx">: and <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/sticky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="sticky"> for us mama's that will forever grieve over our lost ones.
 

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My oh my, Mama, you've taken some hard knocks. I just want to cry with you! You have a lot of strength it seems.<br><br>
I've had a 13 week miscarriage (my first pregnancy) that's always made me paranoid, even after 13 years. I have had some other early m/c, including last Nov.<br><br>
I am always looking for signs of m/c and wondering what tomorrow will bring. I am much more fearful about losing a child after, say, 15 weeks up to full term as I am with an earlier miscarriage because I can only imagine what that would be like. It kills me just thinking about it.
 

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I lost a baby in 10/05. I'm still freaking out about this pregnancy and hyper about my symptoms. I don't think I'm going to feel like I can let my gaurd down until this baby is safely born. I have a doppler and I can hear my baby's heart already so that makes me feel much better. But I'm still really scared.
 

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Oh, mama, my heart goes out to you. It feels good to have made it this far though, doesn't it? I can't say I have been relaxed about it, but still I'm relieved and happy every day farther I make it in this pregnancy. I have had three losses, the most recent last November on my birthday. It was a very sad day. But I have hope because my son was conceived three months after a miscarriage (just like this baby) and he's *perfect*! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink">
 

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I had a loss too- my son Doran at 35w3d in July 2005. I have been very scared this pregnancy since Doran was my first. I am trying to relax but of course it is hard- I won't be completely relaxed till I have this little one crying in my arms.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug">
 

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maisiedotes;7958230 I am trying to relax but of course it is hard- I won't be completely relaxed till I have this little one crying in my arms.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug">[/QUOTE said:
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Yeah, then we'll have a whole new set of worries! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> But I can't wait!
 

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You are a very strong mama. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
I had an early loss in January and lost dd's twin two years ago. That one was hard.
 

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I had a stellar morning, so much so I nearly cried thinking something was wrong with the pregnancy. It's almost 11:30 am here on the west coast and I am definitely feeling sick again. Darnit!! On one hand, I want to know this pregnancy is still okay, but why does that have to mean I need to be so sick?! Anywhoo, I feel for all the mamas here with such devastating losses. I was a mess after my early m/c in Nov. I can't imagine losing a twin or an older baby.
 

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does it sound insane to say thank you???<br>
not thank you for your losses...but thankyou for sharing them with me.<br><br>
even though all of my losses are unrelated and one in a million types things...i still feel like a freak sometimes for being pregnant again.<br>
that is what people think (or i think they think) AGAIN??? is she nuts?<br><br>
and i do feel a little nuts sometimes.<br>
i have spent my entire 20's pregnant or breastfeeding... and i have ONE living child and will be 28 when this Miracle is born.<br><br>
i feel ashamed and embarrased sometimes, it is silly i know.<br><br>
i just don't want to feel so tragic.<br><br>
anyway thank you for sharing.<br>
i am SO glad i am not alone.
 

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How could I possibly understand what you mean, but I feel that I completely do from my heart. Somehow, in my heart, I knew you were going to say you didn't want to feel so tragic anymore. I can totally get that, even without the same types of losses.<br><br>
Welcome to the DDC, Mama! We'll see you all the way to the end with a healthy baby.
 

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You already know I am since I see you on the PAL thread. But yes, I'm pg after a loss and it's certainly different.<br><br>
MJ - don't be ashamed! There's something about a loss that affects us in ways that we never expect. One, I think, is the desire to try again. To hope to experience the miracle of life again and know that it can all be beautiful. I'm thinking of you...
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> moma justice. I can't imagine how terribly hard a road it's been for you. And I'm sure I would feel very worried about this pregnancy if I had as many losses as you. I pray that this one is nothing less than perfectly healthy for you!<br><br>
I had a very early miscarriage at the beginning of September. I got pregnant with an IUD in place (and it was still in the right place). I felt partly responsible for that loss, since I knew I had been ovulating, but you're just not suppose to be able to get pregnant with an IUD in place. We had it removed then and went on to TTC this one. I really don't worry about losing this one since that was such a freak thing. But I still understand the pain of loss.
 

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mj--You know me, too, from the PAL thread. I think you are an amazing, strong mama.<br><br>
We lost our baby in November. I was 15 weeks along and starting spotting and found out that our baby died a few days after we heard the heartbeat at 11 weeks.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> to all of you mamas who are pg after a loss
 

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My pregnancy before DS ended in a loss - a missed miscarriage. Because of that, until I see my baby on the ultrasound, I feel as if I cannot form any sort of attachment. I am also constantly wondering if everything is all right - at the end of DS's pregnancy I went in to the midwives office numerous times to be monitored or hear the heartbeat out of emotional worry because my son didn't move.<br><br>
Many many hugs to everyone.
 

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I am having a hard time too. My loss was so late last time that I feel so indifferent at times. Like, it is not even real yet. I can't bring myself to be happy just yet. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">
 
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