My last two births were hospital births. I started out each birth with a mind towards no epidural. The hospital staff were natural birth-minded, although pretty liberal with interventions when they felt I needed them. By natural birth-minded I mean they made every effort to allow me to move freely, in and out of the tub, walk around, etc. I think I felt a false sense of security because for both births I felt blindsided by pain, and in the end, I ended up getting an epidural for both<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">. I wanted to die the pain was so bad! I chose to only listen to positive natural birth stories, and I turned a blind eye to the painful ones<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment">. The doctor who delivered my children said that both times the babies heads were turned sideways, and got stuck on my pelvis somewhere? I think? For my first labour, my water broke on it's own, and labour came hard and fast. With my second, the doctor broke my water, and.....same story. ARg. I feel like there is no way I can do natural birth now. I am so scared of the pain. I feel like the the most I can aim for is a vaginal delivery. How do I get my confidence back? What is the best way to overcome traumatic birth experiences?