I was in your shoes last year-I knew in my heart I had endometriosis, but didn't want to go through a laparoscopy just to "prove" it. I ended up going through with it, with some gentle encouragement. Can I gently encourage you to do the same?
First, you will have an official diagnosis. For many, this doesn't mean anything. For me, all I had to do was say "endometriosis" to my insurance and they okayed a lot more things without jumping through hoops. Secondly, I have a copy of my surgery report and I now know the exact location of the endometriosis they removed and where the remaining endometriosis is. This will be immensely helpful as it could affect my pregnancy/labor/delivery. (A little side note-you need to find a provider that is prepared remove all of it. The reason mine didn't was that some of it was in a location that my doctor didn't feel comfortable removing without another specialist there because it had to do with my colon. End of side note!) Also, I found out that Clomid really isn't the best treatment for people with endometriosis. I don't remember specifics, but it has something to do with estrogen overload. If you look around on the internet, you can find more information on this.
DH and I have have been trying for over six months, which seems like an eternity, but really isn't. However, there are also women that have been trying for a year or more-their determination is so inspiring to me and is a constant reminder what a miracle this all is. I also try not to blame my body/condition-I figure that God created me this way for a reason. I know for sure that I will never, ever take any of this for granted. I am so blessed to have a wonderful husband, excellent medical care, and such supportive family and friends. We will embrace whichever way God decides to grow our family.
To get to that point, I had to cleanse myself of all of the hatred and anger I had built up inside towards others. Let me tell you, it has made a world of difference! These ladies on this board are wonderful, too-I encourage you to visit the ONE thread and get to know all of us!
Good luck as you begin this journey!