I feel so rejected. My 1 yo needs her own space to sleep, and I'm a little sad.
My 4 yo has always needed to sleep right next to me touching me. We both slept so well and have really enjoyed our time snuggling together. For the last month she has been sleeping on her own mattress pushed next to ours (all are on the floor). Although its really just an extention of our king sized bed, she started hating it and was waking up crying. The baby is a light sleeper and wakes up when dh comes to bed or when or go to the bathroom, etc. Usually she nurses right back to sleep in seconds so I never thought much about it. Then last week she started wanting to get up when she was awakened.
So for a week of awful sleep, I have DD1 waking up crying, and I don't know why, and DD2 waking up wanting to play. I am
Ok, so why am I complaining? I feel strange, like the baby is being denied the awesome pleasure of snuggling with wonderful me! Or that her big sister is pigging in and ruining the cosleeping experience for her. DH says cosleeping is to respond to the baby's needs quickly, and we should respond to dd2's need for space just as we respond to dd1's need for closeness. Did I do something wrong that she doesn't want to be close to us? Maybe our sleeping environment had been too chaotic for her. Or is it just personality?
I sheepishly admit that I secretly thought all you mama's with babies who "slept better in their own bed" were full of it.