I'm planning a UC but still seeing a CNM for backup care. She is not aware of my plans. I had previously left her for a homebirth m/w, but decided to go UC and went back to the CNM, telling her that I scratched my hb plans b/c I wasn't comfortable with the CPM (half true). I am just worried that if I tell her after that we planned the UC, she will refuse to take me as a patient if we have anymore children. I really love her, she delivered my DD and she is very pro-natural cb/non-intervention. I am also afraid if I tell her it was an oops, she will ask why I didn't go to the hospital immediately after, or call 911 or something. What should I do? Just keep it as an oops or tell her the truth afterwards? If I keep it as an oops, what do I say if she asks why I didn't go to the hosp after?