[BensMom]

I am an emotional wreck! They are changing my sons bus schedule, and it was going to pick him up 30 mins earlier. Now its only 17 mins earlier, but I am still upset about it, since the old schedule was working so well. I was almost in tears talking to the lady at the transportation dept today, I'm sure she thought I was a loon. If DH says the slightest thing that might be interpreted as "not nice" I break down crying. His mom made me so mad the other day I turned into a blubbering mess.<br><br>
I am usually not a crier at all! Amazing what these hormones can do to a person.<br><br>
How is everyone else doing emotionally? New mommies and still waiting mommies?

 

[MrsMoe]

I was like this big time, but it gets better and beter for me. Now I only have one emotional meltdown a day, and it's only when I am tired. It's two weeks since I had her, and emotionally I have come a LONG way.

 

[cjbeach]

I think I'm too tired and busy (3 kids, 2 diff schools, newborn, xmas, 2 weeks of non-helping company) to meltdown this time. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> With DS1 I cried every morning over A Baby Story (cried because the babies on the show reminded me my lil guy would only be this little once????? <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/blush.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="blush"> )

 

[crsta33]

I'm a bit of an emotional roller coaster...feel really good sometimes and really bad others.<br><br>
I had a pretty serious bout of anxiety when he was just a couple of days old, but that's gotten better. I'm still worried about all kinds of ridiculous stuff (like when the 2 kids I keep come back in January, what I'm going to do when my mom goes home, paying bills, etc.)<br><br>
I'm a bit stir crazy and have taken the baby out to the park once and to WalMart once <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment"> We are going to a Christmas party tomorrow night and taking the baby...Kenna's going home with Nana for a day or two (I'm a little apprehensive about that, but Kenna wants to go and it'll be easier for me to take care of just Landon).<br><br>
My thoughts and actions seem kinda random and disconnected...it'll get better soon though I'm sure. I just can't believe how time is flying.<br><br>
Christa

 

[MelW]

Neela's a month old tomorrow, and I'm doing better (most of the time). I really need to work to reign in "manic mama", because I can be a totally crazy overachiever on a good day...only to crash badly the next. Yup- manic mama- she's the one that baked bread from scratch with a two week old baby, and thinks that she can run a million errands and not nap on only a couple of hours sleep the night before. My husband helps to hold me back a bit, but then I get pissy and accuse him treating me like a child. Then I get totally overexhausted and break down in tears...<br><br>
I knew that my type-a-ness would be an issue as a parent. Someone...restrain me before I strap on the sling and vacuum the whole house. I should totally nap more <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wild.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wild">

 

[BensMom]

LOL, I suppose there has to be a few good things about the c/s - my type A personality has been *forced* to slow down. When you can barely get in and out of chairs, it makes it hard to vacuum. But I still look at my nasty floor, or the pile of dishes and the growing laundry mountains and it KILLS me not to be able to do anything about it myself! (Well, ok, I did the dishes today. I feel so bad for DH who has really tried to keep up with my standards. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> )<br><br>
The best part about being so totally laid up, is that DH now appreciates how hard my "day job" is. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up">

 

[3for3hb]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/mischievous.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="mischief"> i had my first real breakdown this morning. the mastitis has certainly slowed down the overall pp healing process. i've hired some homeschooling teens to come in a couple of hours a day to help entertain willem and do some light cleaning but my budget is getting pretty thinned out really quickly so i'm compensating by having them come less and actually doing more myself... bad idea, i know. today, i've just had enough. dh is in the middle of quitting his job (long story but basically we're going to move about 40 min away and take over an established practice at 1/3 less working hours/week yrt 3 times the pay!!!)... the dr, he currently works for has this draconian slave-driver work ethic for his employees and it's stressing me out (the long hours dh is away from me and the kids). we are both exhausted and impatient... it's just not a peaceful, healing environment here for the time being.<br>
and then on top of everything, i just found out that the hospital i got my prenatal bloodwork done at when i was pg with WILLEM(!!!) put my name on a collections list because they billed wrong and never collected $$ from medicaid (which i'm no longer on...) that was over 2 years ago!!!<br>
i swear something's up in the universe... but it's sure not my spirits!

 

[deathbygodiva]

Ditto, MelW's post...<br>
I'm that manic Mama... frenzy one day, dragging out of bed the next. Plus dh is gone for the next 3 three weeks off and on.<br><br>
Overall, healing has been fast, just the emotional days catch me off guard.

 

[samsmamma]

I['m doing surprisingly well. The only time I lose it is when Sam is being totally rotten and needs to be sent to his room. Because that is never fun. And I also lost it the other morning over Karl's nighttime grumpiness, because I just felt so bad for him.<br><br>
I'm going to go to a breastfeedign support group Monday to just bond with some other mamas and get some reassurance that everything really is as fine as I think it is. I have the spectre of Sam's nursing problems looming over my shoulder and they make me question myself from time to time. So even though Karl is clearly growing and peeing and pooping adequately, I have the is-he-getting-enough fear in the back of my mind...so hanging out with the mamas at the group and talking with the LCs will help.