i just have to come somewhere and vent. i started working last november. it was very, very hard for me, but a move i had to make financially. i am teaching preschool, so i'm exposed to lots and lots of germs, ect. i feel like myself and my girls are ALWAYS sick. i have been out at least twice a month for either myself or one of the girls being sick or injured. i am nursing still, and it is very very hard for me to pump at work. they have nowhere for me to pump (you would think a preschool could provide somewhere), so i ended up getting mastitis in the middle of the day because i was not able to get home on my lunch break to pump. i could not function, and ended up with a 103 degree fever. they could not let me go home, and i was so sick i finally ended up in tears, for which i felt completely rediculous. my boss was ticked off, and i understand why. it was so frustrating! so i took thursday off, and friday i was scheduled out until 1 so i could take my girls to the dr, and meet with dd1s neurologist. well, the appt ended up going till 130, and for some reason in my head i was thinking that they wanted me to call them when i was done to find out what time they needed me. i totally forgot i told her i thought i could make it in at 1. so of course i get a call and they are upset because im not there, and again i feel like an idiot. i am NOT a flake. i have never ever not shown up to work when i said i would without even a call, but they dont know that because i just started working there not long ago. this bothered me all weekend. last month i hurt my back really badly trying to lift a child onto the changing table. i was out a week. the kids have had stomach bugs countless times, and high fevers. dh is no help with the kids when they are sick as he gets flustered too easily, and he makes a little more than me so im the one who has to stay home with them. i am not looking forward to going in tomorrow and having to face all these people who probably think im a flake who was at home eating junk food and watching soap operas in my pjs all day long. arrrgh!! ok, i feel better now. i just needed to get some of that out. i am trying so hard to save up so that we can move and i can open an in home daycare, but we have a long way to go before that can happen.