I have had a horrible day. Carter would'nt stop screaming for over an hour this morning. I was trying to get myself together and the girls so we could leave for our appointment. He did not want down and screamed. I could'nt pick him up because I needed my hands free (I am searching for a sling). All day he's been like this. I could'nt find my wallet or my new Kiwi pie wool cover (it's so hot today and I wanted him in it). He screams in the car for 10 min until he FINALLY went to sleep. He will only go to sleep if I nurse him to sleep (no SNS). We get to our appointment and he's lost 11 ounces. He nurses great, has a great latch and drinks all 3 ounces in the SNS. Then the big moment...1/2 ounce of bm.
I tried so hard to be brave, but I lost it when we got in the car. She said he was most likely over eating and not to put anymore than 3 ounces in the SNS and not to give him more than 4 ounces if we need to give him a bottle. She said he'll just spit it up. She said that it's good that I'm noticing more of an output. She said to give it two more weeks and see if there's more progress.
I'm so tired and cranky. I'm tired of all this work and such little return. I know I should'nt look at the ounces, but rather the bonding. It's just so hard. I know I should look at the fact that he's getting 3 ounces of bm/day, but it's so hard. My house is a mess, my husband is cranky, my girls are feeling left out. I'm not quiting, but it is so hard to stay possitive and focused. It seems like nothing I do. The doc said sometimes it comes back within days and sometimes within months and sometimes not at all.
Please quote me facts and statistics. Please remind me the benefits and how this is best for him. I need a little motivating.

I'm so tired and cranky. I'm tired of all this work and such little return. I know I should'nt look at the ounces, but rather the bonding. It's just so hard. I know I should look at the fact that he's getting 3 ounces of bm/day, but it's so hard. My house is a mess, my husband is cranky, my girls are feeling left out. I'm not quiting, but it is so hard to stay possitive and focused. It seems like nothing I do. The doc said sometimes it comes back within days and sometimes within months and sometimes not at all.
Please quote me facts and statistics. Please remind me the benefits and how this is best for him. I need a little motivating.