[MPsSweetie]

I just used the restroom and when I wiped there was a little light red blood on the tp. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> Since I found out last week I have been terrified that something is going to happen to my baby. It was such a shock to get a bfp and I cried a little, I have severe anxiety and had a bad winter, so now I'm scared that my baby is leaving me because I didn't react the right way... I shouldv'e been happier right away. I want this little one so much now, please God don't let me lose our baby.

 

[~adorkable~]

huge hugs and all the care and support you need being sent your way<br><br>
spotting is really normal, it was the first thing that my nurse told me after my BFP that it was ok to spot.

 

[MommaMoo]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> Did you call you HCP? S/he might be really reassuring, since spotting can be totally normal. Maybe you can get a scan or have your HCG levels checked if the spotting continues? I spotted for a few days before I even knew I was pregnant and it was fine.<br>
Please don't blame yourself for not being instantly happy when you learned you were pg. Every woman experiences conflicting emotions at some point while pregnant. That wouldn't have anything to do with your spotting.

 

[pycelan]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug"> Prayers for you Momma!

 

[MPsSweetie]

Thank you all. Sorry I was a bit emotional there. This pregnancy has hit me hard. No more spotting for now, thank goodness. I haven't seen my dr yet, and she is out Fri Sat Sun, so if I bleed or cramp this weekend I will head straight to the ER. I am too stressed out this time to wait any longer.

 

[baglady]

Spotting is totally normal. Just take care. Most times, spotting in early pregnancy isn't anything to worry about. Of course that's easier said than done!

 

[MPsSweetie]

I am just SO nervous this time around! I asked dh and he said I was a bit last time, but this is bad! I keep convincing myself that I must be worrying because something is wrong. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><br>
No more spotting!

 

[boogiemonster]

This sounds a lot like what happened to me last weekend. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> It's so hard not to worry, isn't it?

 

[carfreemama]

I have anxiety, too (GAD and OCD, to be exact) and I was just thinking about starting a thread about pregnancy with a mental illness. I'm so glad things have eased up. I know anxiety during this time is normal, but it's HORRIBLE if you actually HAVE anxiety to begin with. I totally understand the worry that you somehow caused it with your thoughts, too; though if it's any consolation, in my obsessive googling I heard over and over again that emotional trauma (which is way worse than what you're describing) really hasn't been shown to increase m/c rates. Physical trauma, OTOH, can. I try to remind myself of this, because the LAST thing I need to be thinking is how stress is bad for the baby. I'm sure it's not great, but it's there no matter how hard I try to stop it. And BTW, every pregnant woman I've ever spoken to has talked about ambivalence or shock; no matter how much the baby was wanted. Hang in there, this only feels like forever!

 

[MPsSweetie]

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So hard!

 

[MPsSweetie]

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<div style="font-style:italic;">I have anxiety, too (GAD and OCD, to be exact) and I was just thinking about starting a thread about pregnancy with a mental illness. I'm so glad things have eased up. I know anxiety during this time is normal, but it's HORRIBLE if you actually HAVE anxiety to begin with. I totally understand the worry that you somehow caused it with your thoughts, too; though if it's any consolation, in my obsessive googling I heard over and over again that emotional trauma (which is way worse than what you're describing) really hasn't been shown to increase m/c rates. Physical trauma, OTOH, can. I try to remind myself of this, because the LAST thing I need to be thinking is how stress is bad for the baby. I'm sure it's not great, but it's there no matter how hard I try to stop it. And BTW, every pregnant woman I've ever spoken to has talked about ambivalence or shock; no matter how much the baby was wanted. Hang in there, this only feels like forever!</div>
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Yes, please start that thread! I have been thinking the same thing myself! I have always had phobias, anxiety, depression... Last year was bad, and this past winter was almost the death of me. I KNEW in December that I should not have anymore kids, because I was in such a bad place. It took me a few months to get past that, because it wasn't the way our "plan" was supposed to work out. I grieved and everything! By April I was feeling a bit better and thinking of the future in a different way, moving forward, then BAM... bfp. And I LOVE babies and so wanted another, I just don't love myself...<br>
Sorry, tonights a bad night, lots of anxiety and fear.

 

[mamas2atti]

Big hugs mama. Take it easy.