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When I joined MDC in May 2005 the Bipolar thread was one of the first things that got me hooked on this site. Wow, there were real moms, that were good moms who were suffering from this. It was hard for me to participate on the Bipolar treads because, I was so afraid that local moms I know would read what I wrote and not understand thus, judge me. Well, as far as I know that has not happened yet and if it does it is OK. I have been doing well over the last couple of months and haven't needed the constant support of the BP thread but, I am also sad that it has not been active lately. I feel that recognizing this disease as part of who I am helps me keep it in check and I wish there was more opertunities to discuss things even if I am doing well. I hope that others are well and that's the reason for the silence on this issue. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love">
 

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I'm doing well. The increased my Lamictal to 150 and my Abilify to 15. I make sure I get enough sleep and eat properly as well. The only time I had any breakthrough symptoms (suicidal depression) was during PMS week. I just got a Nuvaring in hopes it will even out my hormones (and prevent pregnancy!). No manias, not even hypomanias lately. And my house isn't as clean as it used to be because of it!<br><br>
I am going through a grieving process over having to wean my baby who is now 10 months old. Most of the time I'm okay with it and know I did the right thing, but it feels like we broke up, like the physical bond has been severed. It is sad.<br><br>
How is everyone else doing?
 

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Celrae, Thanks for getting this thread going again!!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up"> I agreee, we do need to acknowledge this part and speak about it because it is a big part of who we are. sometimes, lately i felt like my symptoms were so in check that " oh, maybe im not really bp..." -That sort of stuff i understand can get us in trouble. I realize my syptoms are not usually very extreme and with my low dose im good and then I also realize anything could change at any time.<br>
I just had my blood work done and am wondering if I should call the lab or my dr. to get the results. she would (dr.) have called if anything was wrong but i guess i dont trust her judgement. I think dr.s often look at numbers and let things go if they are right on the cusp. do you agree?<br><br>
well, as far as my stuff: pretty okay except for the hormonal fun <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked">:<br><br><br>
Glad to be here <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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<table border="0" cellpadding="6" cellspacing="0" width="99%"><tr><td class="alt2" style="border:1px inset;">Research suggests that people that have Bipolar Disorder may benefit by up to a 25% reduction in symptoms when they take fish oil capsules that are high in the EPA (a type of Omega-3 fatty acid) form of oil. It is important to be careful about the type of fish oil you are using - because not all fish oils are effective. The researchers at the University of Scheffield tell us that "What people really need to be looking at is the amount of EPA in the fish oil they are buying. Our data from previous studies suggests that DHA is of little use in the treatment of bipolar disorder but EPA is the substance that yield the best results. Dosage wise it is suggested that about 2,000 mg/day to 4,000 mg/day ( 2 to 4 grams/day) should help."</td>
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Anyone have good resources for parenting as a bipolar? It's so hard for me to attend day-to-day tasks when I'm hypomanic ... I can't focus or think well enough, then also hard to attend day-to-day tasks when I'm depressed .. cuz, well, I'm depressed, and when I'm doing well, I'm trying to hard to prepare for/recover from.<br><br>
Lots of it is the stress of 18000 things going on in life, but still ... I'd love some good resources directed to parents. Like, not parents of bipolars but biplar parents. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">
 

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That's a great inquiry. I guess this is the best place i know but even so i dont post in this forum on parenting. hmmm. Guess i just take it in stride- sorta. Your are right, of course. getting through some days is tough. It is much better now im on meds. My recovery time of the ups and downs isnt even there anymore. I wouldnt say i rate in the high end of bi-polar if ykwim, so i think it's easier to get a grip when things get cloudy or chaotic.<br>
I hope there is a place somewhere for us to get parental tips.<br>
let us know--- anyone?
 

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I'm doing well... in fact haven't had a single episode either way for months now. I'm experiencing excellent results with natural treatments ( including mega doses of potent high quality fish oil) and haven't felt this normal in all my life. I did miscarry in September though and I'm getting ready to have my second AF. I have had pretty severe PMS both times which is out of the ordinary for me. I definately have it a little usually but this is off the charts and pretty disturbing. ND knows about it from last month and said if it happened again she would take care of me... I see her on Monday. We'll see.<br><br>
Glad I spotted this thread again :)
 

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If it isnt too nosey can I ask what medications everyone is taking and how it is working for you? I have not been officially diagnosed with bipolar but after researching and reading more about it I believe I have a sort of variant. I don't get manic in the usual sense but instead irritable, grumpy, anxious, snappy, and well you know. The other times I am very depressed especially during PMS/PMDD. For ten days out of each month I am very teary, sad, hopeless, sometimes even suicidal. I take lamictal and zoloft but am trying to taper off on the zoloft as there is some evidence that it may make bipolar issues worse. Also if we could keep this active it would be very helpful for me and I am sure for others as well. I have a hard time being a mom when I am depressed and feel guilty about it.
 

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I take Lamictal and Abilify. Prozac sent me into manic hell, and Depakote didn't do much to stabilize me. The Lamictal keeps me even, and the Abilify keeps me focused. Thank goodness for these meds or I may not even be here right now.
 

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Hopeland(neat name by the way)<br>
I am on Depakote and Effexor. low doses. You sound like me. Never much of the total typical manic stuff you hear about but did get hyper-sexual and the Use of street drugs in my past is something i beleive might be what i self-medicated with. I think the problems sometimes with seeking help is we think we need to fit in the prescribed sympotom box and yet there are great varying degrees and syptoms for each individual. Thats what i understand. I tend to think of my bipolar in the terms of my whole life-picture. my history my energy my family history my body-type my experiences and who i am now after recieving lots of therapy and working on me. after all that still being left as this highly emotional and irrational at times person i had to seek out more help. That brought me and my pshychiatrist to the conclusion or rather the suscpicion that i was having bipolar tendencies. When we started the meds i wasnt at all wanting to believe this to be true but on the other hand i wanted an answer and a possible solution of sorts. so, we tried the meds and they worked. I also take omegas and multis and not much processed food and do yoga. I have one day each week to myself in order to re-fuel-- that is very important to me.<br>
I agree that we should keep the thread going. That is one thing i wonder about my bipolar tendencies--- my consistency. If I get 'in to' one thing i will spend a lot of my extra time in that. It sometimes seems a little obsessive and so i 'forget' about other things. so, what ever we can do to keep this as a regular support place would be great.
 

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hopeland,<br><br>
What my np told me is that Zoloft can incite hypomania (the lesser state of mania). It sounds as though, for you, this is not the case. I would caution you to not adjust your medication without talking to a qualified doctor/nurse, especially if you are already feeling depressed/suicidal. It's really hard to be a mama when you're falling apart. Do you have any IRL support people who can help you? For me, when I'm falling apart, the hardest thing is making meals and washing dishes, and my friends and family kick in and help out by either having us over for meals or bringing them here.<br><br>
There are other conditions that can look like bipolar, such as agitated depression. I'd really urge you to get in to see a specialist so you can get what you need! And, don't be too hard on yourself.<br><br>
I'm on lamictal, and I love it. It helps me think; it makes my brain work. My np jumped me from 100 to 200, which was waaay too much, so we went back to 100, which is not enough, and now I'm on 125 and if it's not enough I'll go up by another 25mg. I also take lorazipam occasionally for anxiety and when my brain needs slowing.<br><br>
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I'm new here to the Mental Health forum, although I have been diagnosed bipolar since I was 18. I've had a recent episode that caused me to be hospitalized for a few days. I wanted to talk with other moms going through similar problems.<br><br>
Long story short, I haven't had a really bad episode with my bipolar in a very long time. It's been almost two years. I thought that maybe I was dealing with ppd. I knew that I was at risk for ppd because of my previous mental health issues, so I have been on Zoloft since I got pregnant in April 2004.<br><br>
Things have gotten pretty overwhelming for me. I've been having some really terrible mood swings and become completely disconnected from ds and dh. Last Tuesday, dh finally decided to do something about it. He's been seeing a counselor for other reasons, and he talked to her about what was going on with me. So I had an emergency screening at our community mental health center. They thought that I was a danger to my family and myself, which I thought was possible, and decided to hospitalize me to get me stabilized.<br><br>
Dh kept apologizing for helping because he didn't want me to be hospitalized, but I was actually grateful for the help. They switched me from Zoloft to Lexapro, and I am enrolled in an intensive outpatient program at the mental health center.<br><br>
Unfortunately, the Lexapro seems to be affecting me and the baby (still nursing my 10 month-old) adversely. I'm getting a bit worked up with possible hypo/mania. Ds has a runny nose and consequently an ear infection. I think that I will switch back to the Zoloft because neither of us had any side effects from it. Although it has been suggested that I start on a mood stabilizer, I have been hesitating because I really love breastfeeding ds. Also, he has food allergies that make formula feeding nearly impossible. I'd really like to make it to a year, which is just six weeks away. Luckily the doctors have faith in me and are being very supportive of this.<br><br>
Baby's awake... I'll write more later.
 

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Still here - and still Bipolar too <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/upsidedown.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="upsidedown"><br><br>
it's nice to hear that some mamas are having a better time of things - I know I always worry when I haven't seen people around for a while.<br><br>
So what's new? welllll, had to switch my meds around last week <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> I definitely tend to the depressive, rather than the manic end of the spectrum, and I find this time of year really challenging. Been having a lot of despair recently - wanting to just run away and disappear. I know that's not the *real* me, but I get scared. So, rather than go down the whole suicide path again we've added some Concerta....it makes a big difference to my anxiety level, and seems to kick me out of the hole enough that I can function at a better level again.<br><br>
The downside: hypomania. Yup, you know you're manic when you vacuum the entire house ( including walls, ceilings, drapes, mouldings, furniture etc) at 6.15 am <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/bouncy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="bouncy"> oh, and then I decided to scrub down the bathroom walls.......oh boy! It's calming down a bit now, at least to the stage where I can manage it a bit better, but how I wish there was some kind of magic middle ground, y'know?<br><br>
And then there's the fear. Fear that I can't be the mama to dd that I long to be; that somehow this illness will trip me up and land me on my knees and that I'll fail her. I'm sure that I'm not alone in this though...<br><br>
But overall, life is good. I have food in my belly, I'm warm and dry, and my dd is sleeping softly upstairs. The sun will rise tomorrow, and we'll see what new joys it brings.<br><br>
~*~*love to you all*~*~
 

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BabyBumblebee ... that fear. I know it too well. It often cuddles in with me at odd moments and breathes its putrid breath in my ear.<br><br>
MrsRoss ... I am nursing. I am taking Lamictal. It's an L2 med according to the Medications and Mother's milk book ... my prnp was a lac. consultant first, and I feel quite confident about it. It's been a fabulous mood stabilizer for me. Depakote is another breastfeedign friendly, but with more side effects, and you absolutely CANNOT get preg while on it. You might look further into a mood stabilizer if it seems a useful possibility.<br><br>
Some days being bipolar sucks, and some days it's so much fun. I like being a long pendulum with a short arc <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngtongue.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Stick Out Tongue"> .
 

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Mrsross welcome and hugs to you Mama!<br><br>
From what I understand Lexapro is not an exceptable drug for a bipolar person to be taking. You are most likely starting to become manic which is heavily aggrivated by Lexapro. I'm no expert for sure but I would let your Doc know asap what's going on and if it were me I'd ask to change meds. I had a terrible experience with Lexapro due to a Dr. who was ignorant about the drug. Crazy huh? After freaking out for 6 weeks my other Dr. took me off and couldn't believe I was ever on it in the first place. Lexapro is also how many people discover that they are bipolar and not just depressed. They start on it because it is apparently a very affective treatment for depression but many times bipolar is uncovered due to the mania that follows shortly after the onset of treatment.<br><br>
Anyhow... that crazy experience was what promted me to go after a different avenue of treatment. I have had wonderful and almost unbelievable success with alternative medicine under the supervision of an ND. Most incredible.<br><br>
GL Mama
 
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