I hope this is the right place to post this. I have decided after 14 years together to finally leave a toxic relationship. We have three kids together. While I am excited I am also terrified of being on my own financially. I am scared that he is going to show me a side of him that I have never seen before. There has always been a part of me that held back from him and was afraid of him. I never knew why since he never has hit me or done anything crazy, but I am afraid that he will go nuts once he realizes that once I am gone I am not coming back to him. I am scared that I am just plain bieng selfish and that my kids will hate me for this and I am scared that my mil might use this as an excuse to try to get ds1 away from me/us. I am looking for a place right now but having trouble finding something affordable with no waiting list. I don't want to be there anymore. He is keeping the house. When I go home after work I get really depressed and hide away from everyone because going home to him is too hard for me anymore. Especially when he sits tehre and tries to tell me how sad he will be without me. Like I need him to heap on extra doses of guilt. THen there is my family(or rather his). I know I will be getting an earful. I am at a time in my life where I no longer fear other peoples opinions. I stayed in a relationship way longer than I should have in order to do what everyone else thinks is right. I dont care what everyone else thinks of me at this point, I just don't want to have to be fighting with everyone on this, mainly mil. Any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks.