I understand. It's about fear of the unknown, not having control. I work really hard to NOT have expectations of how things will turn out, because otherwise I spend too much time worrying that I'll be disappointed. Which is really dumb - I don't allow myself to look forward to stuff - but it's better than the alternative.
Me too. Weekends are challenging for me. My weekdays are very patterned and routine. I wish I had more words of wisdom, but I at least wanted to let you know you're not alone! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">
i dont handle change very well. any little changes in the "plan" and i get crazy. DH knows this and tries to accomodate me but he shouldnt have to tip toe around me. i try real hard to control myself. i put the plan i quotes because it is in my head. it is a plan of how i thought it would all go but i hadnt told anybody that that is what i expect. if i do tell someone (like DH) it is usually seen as a pain and micromanaging. DH does like to know so that he can help me somewhat. kids never do the "plan". it is impossible to have a "plan" with kids and i am learning to roll with it.
Try not to get mad at the anxiety, because then you are fueling it more! I know, this is hard! I have had severe anxiety problems for years since my daughter was born, and I have done all sorts of therapy. Say hello to it, and you don't have to like it, but sort of think of it as "oh, hi, I am busy and going to run errands, but you can come if you really think you need to". I know, so hard. If all else fails on the big day...ativan? Good Luck...