the ungainly body

See, I'm just sleepy tired. My body is functioning just fine, but my eyes would love to be closed all day long. And I'm sleeping decently enough at night.

My body just HURTS.

All over.

It's been that way most of the pregnancy, but it's just getting worse.

I do love my new bed, though.

I'm exhausted all the time too. My eyes burn all day long and if I close them for even a second I can feel myself falling asleep. I can't sleep well at night either. Last night I got up to pee 6 times! Then when I do sleep I have wacky dreams like last night I had a dream that I had six kids all under 3 years old. The one I'm carrying now (my first) was the three year old the others all popped out after her and I couldn't keep track of them. For some reason we still had our little compact car and pickup and I was freaking out because I couldn't make 6 carseats fit into either vehicle. I woke up all stressed out and that was my period of "good sleep" last night.

Every day I need some sort of nap. My three-year old is not happy with my need for rest, but she also gets up in the middle of the night quite often. All I want to do is just crash on the couch. And my house does not resemble clean.

My body is really achy too. I don't remember being this uncomfortable with my last pregnancy. I do remember it from pregnancy #1 but I'm already 6 weeks past when I delivered that pregnancy.

I have been sleeping about 12 hours a day, I'm just worn out. I'm really slowing down and even on my good days I can't manage to get much done other than stay awake.

Seems like it might actually be easier with the baby on the OUTSIDE !

Overall I feel pretty lucky about how my body has been adapting - some weeks I have severe pain and discomfort, but it always seems to get better with time (and chiropractic, and swimming). But overall I just feel about 85 years old - moving SO slowly, always out of breath, always tired. I will never know how you mamas with kids already do this (because I don't think I'll ever have another kid! Although, never say never).
A few months ago the light at the end of the tunnel (i.e. birth!) seemed scary because of the uncertainties of labor and delivery, much less the exhaustion and newness of caring for an infant. Now I am starting to feel more ready than I thought possible because I just miss having a dang waist and being able to roll over in bed without something in my pelvic cracking and making me shout in pain. And without DH saying "you breathe like a scuba diver".

12 hrs - or even 6 or 7 - sounds amazing. i feel like with all the night waking to peepee, and mainly just not being able to sleep, i get about 2-3 hrs a night. maybe 3-4 hrs. and it ain't enough!

Yeah, 7 hours of sleep and getting up every 2 hours to pee. Ugh. I usually prefer 9 hours but I just can't get comfortable enough in the morning to sleep in at all. I think this morning will be better than most because I went a whole 3 hours between peeing sessions twice last night, instead of my usual 1-2.

No, having a baby is NOT easier. Trust me. But even though the sleep equation = less, I prefer breastfeeding every 2 hours to attempting not to kill my SPD-enhanced (ha) pelvis when I roll over and get up to pee every 2 hours. It helps that my SPD goes away almost immediately after giving birth, which I know is not true for some women.

I am lacking so much energy! Doing simple tasks wipes me out! Last night the dogs had me up every hour barking, too!

For me, having the baby on the outside is much easier. Or at least it was the past 2 times. Adrenaline maybe, but I'm better with running around with a baby strapped to me or nursing all night than dealing with breathlessness, spd, and hormonal exhaustion! Oh, and the random, prodromal ctx that are popping up. Those suck!

It's definitely the lack of energy w/me...I wish my eyes were more tired-i could sleep and block things out! I think a lot of it is that my lung capacity is soooo poor. My whole body hurts, physically and mentally, i can't wait for this baby to come - i don't care how much they don't sleep!
Of course it doen'st help that i've been sick all week, i'm at my lowest, can't wait till i have my body back!!