[Milk8shake]

<div style="text-align:center;"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/Sheepish.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Sheepish"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hammer.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hammer"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hopmad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hopping mad"><b>The Veterans Club</b> <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hopmad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hopping mad"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hammer.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hammer"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/Sheepish.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Sheepish"></div>
<br><b>STARTED BY TEAR:</b><br><br><b>Tear</b> - TTC #1 since 5/08, one chemical pregnancy, one m/c 9 weeks; Laparoscopy 1/10 to remove endometroid cyst; Trying IUIs with breaks to breathe. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/praying.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="praying"> for our healthy baby soon!<br><br><b>Carrin</b>...TTC since 2/08 with one pregnancy that ended in miscarriage in 12/08. I was 11 weeks along. One chemical 2/10. Have tried Crinone for 3 cycles, have a luteal phase defect, and may not even be ovulating. Just started on Vitex and Licorice Roots in hopes that I can prevent having to go the RE-Clomid route.<br><br><b>csekywithlove</b> - I'm 23 years old. I had my first miscarraige at 6 wks on 02/05 at the age of 18. It was two weeks after the death of my grandmother... Now. I have been trying since 10/09 with my DP. We had a BFP in the beginning of January resulting in a D&C. Waiting to try again.<br><br><b>enigo</b> - I've had 2 mc's in the past year at about 12 wks.<br>
I'm fluctuating between very optimistic and um....not. I think we've been on this ride for about a year and a half, but pregnant off and on through 6 months of that.<br><br><b>geekgolightly</b> - TTC since Feb 08. losses: Oct 08 - 9 weeks, Feb 09 - 17 weeks, Aug 09 - 20 weeks, and Jan 10 - 9 weeks.<br><b><br>
Grahnola Mum</b> - I'm currently (3/2010) experiencing our 5th loss. I have lost them all between weeks 7-10. We have done all the testing including blood work, a hysteroscopy and everything came back normal.<br><br><b>InstinctiveMom</b> - I'm 32, and I have 2 kids - my youngest is almost 7. We avoided for about 2 years after his birth, then I started wanting another. I started taking BCPs to plan for an anniversary trip to Vegas in late Jan and we had an accident. In June we had a big fat, heartbreaking, soul-rending miscarriage at 12 weeks. We stopped being careful in August. Hoping to be pregnant before my April BFP anniversary<br><br><b>jessica_s</b> TTC #2 since Oct 08. Missing 3 angels.<br><b><br>
kalamos23</b> - had DD in 7/08, had a loss at 5w 2 days before her 1st birthday - 7/09. Took 6m to conceive again in 12/10, lost the baby at 8w5d, m/c at 12w3d the end of 2/10. Currently TTC again.<br><br><b>ladyjools</b> - have been TTC since the end of July (nearly 6 months) and it took me 5 long years to conceive Samson so we are expecting to be in for the long haul this time. Facing a long waiting list for IUI or IVF.<br><br><b>lovebug</b> - TTC #1 for 4 years (2 actively) with her military man and currently recovering from ectopic pregnancy and loss of her tube. Praying for a quick recovery!<br><br><b>Megan73</b> - DS Aug 08, <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/angel3.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Angel3">l DD (born still) March 07, missing two little ones <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/brokenheart.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Loss">. TTC pregnancy #5<br><br><b>MFuglei Monica</b>, TTC#3 since 1/09 (after 2 years of intense discussions with DH on the matter because I wanted another in 07). First m/c at 6w5d in March, 2nd m/c at 10w5d in July, 3rd m/c a chemical in November, and 4th m/c at 7w4d on 1/7.<br><br><b>MI_Dawn</b> - stillbirth @ 39 weeks on April 1, 2009. Been trying since. Two early losses after the stillbirth - a chemical pg in September 2009 and again in November 2009.<br><br><b>Milk8Shake</b> - TTC #1 since 3/09. Missing three little ones. On TTC hiatus until at least September 10.<br><b><br>
my-j-angel</b> - We lost our sweet Dylan last May, he was stillborn at 26 weeks, In Sept of '09 we had a 6week loss and earlier this month, 3/10, we had a 8 week loss. We are not currently TTC but still hoping one day we will be blessed w/ another child.<br><br><b>no5no5</b> - TTC #2 since October 2007; one miscarriage in November 2008. Hashimoto's thyroiditis, luteal phase defect, possible endometriosis, and heaven only knows what else. Trying to stay sane by laughing at myself.<br><br><b>PhotoJournMama</b> TTC #2 since January 2009; remembering 2 angels.<br><b><br>
SimplyRochelle</b> -TTC#1 since 5/07. One loss at 12 weeks in 9/08.<br><b><br>
starshine1001</b> ~ AKA Jess ~ I'm 28, a nurse and soon to be student midwife, mother to two boys and an angel. We were actually trying to avoid when my cycles got all wonky and I ended up pregnant. I miscarried at about 9 weeks in June 2009, and have been fluctuating between not avoiding and trying ever since. Now we're TTC #3.<br><br><b>Tear</b> - TTC #1 since 5/08, one chemical pregnancy, one m/c 9 weeks; waiting to TTC again in March after laparoscopy/hysteroscopy to remove cyst.<br><br><b>tinynyota</b> - Started not-preventing for #1 in early 2008. Miscarried at 8 weeks in Dec 08. Started charting in March of 09. Another m/c in June at 9 weeks. Testing showed no obvious problem. Then a third m/c in Nov which showed Trisomy 16. Trying again with diet/acupuncture/supplements and researching pre-implantation genetic testing of embryos, if we ever went the IVF route.<br><br><b>TonyaW</b> TTC #2, missing 3 angels. Battling MTHFR and APS, and possible progesterone issues.<br><br><b>Vermillion</b>- Loss at 17 weeks in 12/07. Waited over a year to begin TTC again, and have yet to be successful. No longer TTC or waiting, just seeing what comes to be! Currently trying to work out cycle/ovulation/LP issues.<br><br><b>Zejh</b> - loss at 6 or 7 weeks in September '08; emergency c-section in October '09 at 28 weeks; receiving healing vibes for the approx 6 month wait after a successful fibroid surgery<br><br><div style="text-align:center;"><b><span>Bring on the rainbows!</span></b> <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"></div>
<br><br><div style="text-align:center;"><b><span><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/fingersx.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="fingersx"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/dust.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="dust"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/goodvibes.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Goodvibes">Super Sticky Rainbow Vibes<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/goodvibes.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Goodvibes"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/dust.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="dust"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/fingersx.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="fingersx"></span></b></div>
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Amanda<br>
Jess<br></span></span></div>
<br><br><div style="text-align:center;"><b><span style="font-size:large;">Expecting <span style="color:#FF0000;">R</span><span style="color:#FFFF00;">a</span><span>i</span><span>n</span><span>b</span><span>o</span><span style="color:#0000FF;">w</span><span style="color:#FF0000;">s</span></span></b><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/rainbow1284.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Rainbow"> Becca<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/rainbow1284.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Rainbow"> Monica</div>
<br><br><div style="text-align:center;"><i><b><span style="color:#FFA500;"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug">Remembering our Veteran's significant dates<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/grouphug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="grouphug"></span></b></i></div>
<div style="text-align:center;"><br><br><span><b>January</b></span><br>
7th - MFuglei - loss #4<br><span><b>February</b></span><br><br><span style="color:#FFFF00;"><b>March</b></span><br>
6th - MFuglei - loss #1<br>
9th - Milk8shake - loss #3<br><span><b>April</b></span><br><br><span><b>May</b></span><br>
12th - my-j-angel - Dylan, born still<br><span><b>June</b></span><br>
25th - Milk8shake - loss #1<br><span><b>July</b></span><br>
29th - MFuglei - loss #2<br><span><b>August</b></span><br><br><span><b>September</b></span><br><br><span style="color:#FFFF00;"><b>October</b></span><br><br><span><b>November</b></span><br>
11th - MFuglei - loss #3<br>
16th - Milk8shake - loss #2<br><span><b>December</b></span><br><br></div>

 

[starshine1001]

Awww!! I just saw the "Sticky Baby Vibe" group at the bottom!! Thank you!<br><br>
I went to the chiro for the first time since I found out I was pregnant. My chiro is super sensitive to female bodies, I swear...like she'll be in the middle of an adjustment and say "Yeah...starting your period in the next couple of days, huh?" and I'm thinking to myself <b><i>how does she know that</i></b>?? Well, I went in today and she looked at me a little differently and said "Are you pregnant?" I was taken aback and said "Yeeeeeeessssss..." HER: "You're six weeks?" ME: "I'll be six weeks tomorrow." HER: nodding head..."I already know what the gender is, and I'm never wrong." ME: "Oh, really? Want to take a stab at it?" HER: "Oh, it's not a stab...I just know. I've literally NEVER been wrong." ME: "OK, so what is it?" HER: "You're going to have a little girl." ME: <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/jaw2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="jaw2"> I hope she's right!! Later in the conversation I was telling her how I'm pretty sure that the one that I lost was a boy, and she said that she agreed, but she'd not talked about it because she knew I wasn't doing really well.<br><br>
I sure hope she's right! But most of all, I'm still just hopeful for a sticky baby!

 

[Milk8shake]

Wow, <b>Jess</b> - that is a bit crazy right? But also pretty cool <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin"><br><br>
I don't really have any news over here. Been pretty busy with the moving house stuff. As for all the work crap, I ended up involving the union. I really think they've done the wrong thing by me. We'll see what happens.<br><br>
Oh DP has been super <i>'frisky'</i> the last couple of weeks. I don't know if it is the medication or the self imposed TTC ban or the general unhappiness, but I'm really not that interested at the moment. Poor bugger, I feel sorry for him.<br><br>
Hope everyone has a chance to check in soon!

 

[geekgolightly]

<b>starshine</b> - that is totally wild! I wish I lived in your area, so i could go see her. i have back issues and need someone who can intuit. i think that chiro is part art and part knowledge base.<br><br><b>Milk8shake</b> - How long are you taking a break? Does it help to take a break from all this madness?<br><br><br><br>
Honestly, I wish I could do that, and even asked DH about it, but since I'm 40, and have rough pregnancies, he wants to have a baby sooner than later. Makes sense, but man, I'm tired of all of this.<br><br>
I am POD4. Work is great, I'm more connected with my son than I've been in the two years we have been TTC, I'm keeping up better with my house, and I am following the primal diet and am losing weight and feel happier. I worry that when I get pregnant, I will lose all of what I have done to make myself better these past few months, and it will be for <i>nothing... again</i> because I'll just lose that one too. Four losses is almost my limit I think.

 

[zejh]

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<div style="font-style:italic;">...<br><br><b>Milk8shake</b> - How long are you taking a break? Does it help to take a break from all this madness?<br><br><br><br>
Honestly, I wish I could do that, and even asked DH about it, but since I'm 40, and have rough pregnancies, he wants to have a baby sooner than later. Makes sense, but man, I'm tired of all of this.<br><br>
I am POD4. Work is great, I'm more connected with my son than I've been in the two years we have been TTC, I'm keeping up better with my house, and I am following the primal diet and am losing weight and feel happier. I worry that when I get pregnant, I will lose all of what I have done to make myself better these past few months, and it will be for <i>nothing... again</i> because I'll just lose that one too. Four losses is almost my limit I think.</div>
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Ugh, I know the feeling about worrying about losing progress--I had just lost 40 pounds the year before my first pregnancy, and in the few weeks before that miscarriage, found myself already worrying about gaining weight, how stupid is that? I had no problem getting into shape the following winter, and then I realized what it really is to get out of shape after a few months of modified bed rest. Even after the c-section last fall, I was actually able to get my strength back, in the middle of winter, no less, to the point where, before the surgery last month, I was able to do some pretty heavy lifting. I'm already in pretty decent shape, so I'm hoping I can really get myself in good condition in the next several months--we've got a mandatory wait before we can ttc again, 6 months post-surgery is the date. (Of course, I'm really hoping that at my 6-week post-surgery appointment this coming week, the doctor will ease up on how strict we have to be during the remaining 4 and a half months of the wait... right now, it's very, very frustrating, if you know what I mean... <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll"> )<br><br>
Meanwhile, I've realized that it's been nearly 7 months since Joseph was born. Things were so busy last month that I didn't notice when it had been 6 months. The worst part is that I've never looked at the photos. My husband hasn't, either, as far as I know. My mom told me recently that my dad would like to see them, since he was on the other side of the country that day and never got to meet his first grandchild. And typing this, one thing that bothers me is how detached I feel from the whole thing right now. It's something I think about every day, of course, but at the same time, it kind of almost feels like something that happened to someone else... Does that make any sense?<br><br>
And, on the other side, even if I get pregnant right away this fall and nothing goes wrong, it's still a little over a year till I can hope to be holding a baby... (Of course, if my first pregnancy had gone as planned, the baby would be about a year old now, and I could be thinking now about maybe having a second baby in a year or so...)

 

[CawMama]

Hi all! Just coming off a 3 month break. Getting geared up to start trying again. I feel refreshed, but a bit nervous at the same time. We have sort of agreed that if nothing happens by August, we are just going to consider us a family of 3 and move on. We'll see...

 

[Vermillion]

A little update on my last post in the April thread- BFN. Not toooo terribly sad about it. Eh, I suppose it will happen when it happens. Probably not on it's own though... I'll be going on meds soon to lower my prolactin levels which I'm feeling a bit anxious over. I hate to even take an over the counter pain killer, so I'm not thrilled about going on meds for who knows how long.<br><br>
So, since I'm not preggo and my boobs still hurt and such, <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/af.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="aunt flo"> can show up any time now!!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/angry.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="angry">

 

[Milk8shake]

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<div style="font-style:italic;"><br><b>Milk8shake</b> - How long are you taking a break? Does it help to take a break from all this madness?<br><br>
Honestly, I wish I could do that, and even asked DH about it, but since I'm 40, and have rough pregnancies, he wants to have a baby sooner than later. Makes sense, but man, I'm tired of all of this.<br>
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As for my break, I don't know. I'm only one cycle past my last loss. I'd like to do the three month thing. With everything I have going on, I know that at least six months would probably be ideal. I don't know if that is going to happen. I ache to be pregnant, to have a child. But I'm scared about how fragile my life is at the moment.<br><br>
I'm on the younger side of the scale (26), so theoretically 'I have plenty of time' - <i>[so everyone keeps telling me].</i> Incidentally all of these people had at least one child by the time they were my age. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"><br><br>
Anyhow, I have an appt on Friday at the hospital specialist clinic for RPL investigation. I've had most of the tests and crap already, but I figure another opinion can't hurt. We will see what comes of that I suppose.

 

[PhotoJournMama]

I decided to take a HPT this morning because DH has a sperm analysis tomorrow, but I was thinking if I am pregnant let's not spend $125 just yet...<br><br>
And yes, it was <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> Deep breaths. Here we go again.

 

[MFuglei]

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<div style="font-style:italic;">I decided to take a HPT this morning because DH has a sperm analysis tomorrow, but I was thinking if I am pregnant let's not spend $125 just yet...<br><br>
And yes, it was <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> Deep breaths. Here we go again.</div>
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I know it's scary, but congrats.<br><br>
Deep breaths, much patience, and some sort of massive distraction for the next few weeks. . .

 

[MI_Dawn]

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<div style="font-style:italic;">A little update on my last post in the April thread- BFN.</div>
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Ugh. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked"> Still no <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/af.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="aunt flo"> either???<br><br><div style="margin:20px;margin-top:5px;">
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<div style="font-style:italic;">I decided to take a HPT this morning because DH has a sperm analysis tomorrow, but I was thinking if I am pregnant let's not spend $125 just yet...<br><br>
And yes, it was <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> Deep breaths. Here we go again.</div>
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OMG! Can I be happy for you??? At least in the moment??? <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/fingersx.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="fingersx">

 

[Megan73]

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<div style="font-style:italic;">I decided to take a HPT this morning because DH has a sperm analysis tomorrow, but I was thinking if I am pregnant let's not spend $125 just yet...<br><br>
And yes, it was <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/pos.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="positive"> Deep breaths. Here we go again.</div>
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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"> (But quietly, because I know how hard it is to starting hoping and fearing all over again) and hugs.

 

[Milk8shake]

<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wave.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wave"> Well hello everyone - gee we are quiet in here this month!! I have a good excuse, I had to move house!<br><br><b>Tear</b> - How are you going out there? I know you were having a break, but I'm banking on you quietly, accidentally stalking the boards!<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink"> I hope that all is going okay with your job switch and that this cycle presents lots of 'opportunity'.<br><br><b>Amanda</b> - what can I say? <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/joy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="joy"> sending much love and sticky sticky vibes to you <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/goodvibes.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Goodvibes"><br><br><b>Liz</b> - any sign of the witch? <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/af.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="aunt flo"> have you started your new meds yet?<br><br><b>Carrin</b> - <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/dust.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="dust"> welcome back. glad you are feeling refreshed. I hope it happens quickly for you!<br><br><b>Monica</b> - It's definitely noticable when <span style="text-decoration:underline;">you</span> are quiet. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> How is it going out there in preggo land? Any more awesome appointments you want to fill us in on??<br><br><b>Geek</b> - I'm thinking it might be about testing time for you?? Any news?<br><br><b>Jess</b>- how are you doing? Still feeling awful I hope! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngtongue.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Stick Out Tongue"><br><br><b>Becca</b> - <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/love.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="love"> I hope all is well with you. I'd love to hear how it is going. I hope that you are feeling terrible and pregnant right now.<br><br><b>Zejh</b> - how is the waiting game keeping you? slightly insane like me? Or are you keeping your self busy otherwise?<br><br><b>Megan</b> - I admit to a small of stalking and I just wanted to send you "hugs. I know about the not taking very good care of oneself, and that saw me end up where I am now health wise. Try to do one good thing for your self everyday and build it up from there. (Ok, so I don't always practice what I preach).<br><b><br>
Rochelle</b> -How's it going with your friend and her new bub? I saw DP's new godson last weekend. I held him for like an hour. He was adorable. I was sad. hmph.<br><br><b>Dawn</b> - Any update from your neck of the woods?<br><br><b>AFM</b> - I had my 'second opinion' appt on Friday. All of the bloods came back normal (of course). All up, that is something like 30 vials of my blood that has been tested in the last 6ish months.<br><br>
Anyhow, the doctor basically said what I was expecting, <i>and what I feared</i> - which is that the cause of my losses is my uterus. All other possible causes have basically been ruled out. Unfortunately a congenitally spastic uterus is not something that can be <b>fixed</b>.<br><br>
I am booked in for a hysteroscopy in about 8 weeks. He said that it might find that part or all of my uterus is too thin, or unsuitable for maintaining pregnancy. When I asked, he agreed that it wasn't a necessary procedure, because any findings wouldn't affect management (Or lack thereof), but I am going to do it anyway. What have I got to lose?<br><br>
The doctor said "you'll just have roll the dice again and see what happens".<br>
I think DP nearly punched him.

 

[MFuglei]

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<div style="font-style:italic;"><b>Monica</b> - It's definitely noticable when <span style="text-decoration:underline;">you</span> are quiet. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> How is it going out there in preggo land? Any more awesome appointments you want to fill us in on??<br><br>
...The doctor said "you'll just have roll the dice again and see what happens".<br>
I think DP nearly punched him.</div>
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I'm doing good. I'm quiet because I don't have much to say. I spent my first two pregnancies whining about the horrors of pregnancy but I've enjoyed them now! Overall I'm good, tired, and starting to look PREGNANT to strangers, which is fun. I haven't had any more appointments - I have one a week from yesterday (5/17) for my first trimester screen and I'm very anxious, but hopefully all will go well and I'll be able to finally accept this pregnancy.<br><br>
I'm sorry about your doctor's appointment. That would be very frustrating. VERY. Our doc said something very similar and I was so disappointed. It's hard to roll the dice when you feel or know there's something *wrong*.

 

[MI_Dawn]

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I'm waiting to know... 4DPO according to Ovusoft and 3DPO according to FF...<br><br>
As for the "roll the dice" comment, I think I would have punched him, too! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked">

 

[zejh]

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<div style="font-style:italic;"><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wave.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wave"> Well hello everyone - gee we are quiet in here this month!! I have a good excuse, I had to move house!<br>
...<br><br><br><b>Zejh</b> - how is the waiting game keeping you? slightly insane like me? Or are you keeping your self busy otherwise?<br><br>
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We were definitely keeping busy--both of us were involved in a musical/operetta that just ended (we first met through the group that put on the show--contrary to rumor I accidentally started with the anesthesiologists before my surgery, though, we're definitely not professional! I swear, I didn't say I was, just that I would be singing on stage, but at any rate, they were careful to use a small tube down my throat to avoid damage, so, hey...)<br><br>
I had my 6-week post-surgery follow-up last week, and everything looks good. The restrictions about the next 4 or 5 months have been eased up--just gotta be careful not to get pregnant. Mostly, I'm glad I can use tampons again. Unfortunately for the other part of not having restrictions, dh and I both managed to get bad colds just as the show was ending, so we've been too miserable to take advantage of our new "freedom"... <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngtongue.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Stick Out Tongue"><br><br>
Otherwise, trying to keep myself busy. This summer I'll be taking a class--the same class I had to drop last summer when my pregnancy became "complicated"... so, I figure, might as well take it when I won't be pregnant at all, right? Plus, I'll be doing a fundraiser bike ride with my parents and husband in honor of my dad's stepmother. Hopefully I'll also be getting back into some music stuff that I've let slide for way too long, and at the end of the summer, we'll be going to Europe (which was also something we had to cancel last summer. Suffice to say, this is the "do stuff that's harder with kids" summer)<br><br>
My parents were here for mother's day, and while nobody said anything, my mom insisted on cooking instead of me, so I think it was understood. One person sent me a message saying she was thinking of me, which was very nice--I wasn't interested in attention, but it was nice to be thought of. Several of my friends posted facebook statuses along the lines of good wishes to the "moms, proto-moms, mom-substitutes" which is trying to be inclusive and all that, but where do I fall? I'm not a "proto-mom" since I've already had a baby, but I've never gotten to really do any parenting, so I really don't feel like a mom, and I'm not in any sort of mentoring position to really deserve the third. Honestly, I felt most included by a friend who posted "here's to everyone who's been knocked up"... At least I unambiguously get covered by that one. But, overall, I was happy to be mostly ignored, since with the bad cold, I'm just not up for being emotional in either a good or bad way.

 

[SimplyRochelle]

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I have been seeing her about once a week and it's definitely not as hard with this little one as it was for me with her first son (who was born weeks after my loss EDD). She tried for over 7 years to get pregnant before they finally did so while she hasn't had any losses, she knows what it's like to have that burning, inextinguishable desire to have a baby and continues to be the only steady anchor I have in real life. She sent me a lovely message on Mother's Day telling me what an amazing mother I will be some day and how she hoped it would be very, very soon. I've been a major part in helping her to come to terms with the csection she had to have due to a cord prolapse found as the very last second. It's just be so great so visibly see how we're helping each other cope. It is still hard but I'm getting to that more happy than sad point.<br><br>
I know I'm not active on here much lately, but I am still around stalking everyone. For the past couple weeks I've been in this huge pit of depression and anxiety. It just kind of hit me out of no where and turned everything on its' head. DH and I started arguing a lot (which we rarely do) and getting into really stupid fights. I just wanted to be left alone. I am starting to feel a little better now that I've been actually talking to DH about how I am feeling (and school is out!) Our 3 year anniversary is this Monday and I am having the hardest time even getting excited about it at all. To me, all this says is 3 year of ttc and only loss to show for it. How am I supposed to celebrate that? I'm trying to focus on the strength of our relationship and all we've endured, but it's hard not to let that sadness just seep in. Sorry to bring things down.

 

[starshine1001]

Rochelle ~ You know, I have some friends that were ttc for 8 years...yep, <i>eight years</i>. The suddenly she ended up pregnant without even trying (according to what she told me, anyway), and now has three children. It was a long, hard road for her and her husband, but in the end they got their hearts' desires. The longest that I was ttc was 10 months, so I can't even imagine how you're feeling about 3 years. But it sounds like you've got a very supportive man and you <i>have</i> endured a lot together. But I have a feeling things will work out for you guys in the end...I hope it's not 8 years, though! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
I'm doing OK over here in preggo-land...feeling icky and all! This week is trying for me, as will be every week until my first trimester is over, I think. I am 7w4d now, and this was the exact time I started spotting with the one I lost. I finally miscarried at 8w4d. So this feel like a critical point to me. I haven't had any labs or ultrasounds, although half of me wishes I were having them. You know, the little bean had a heartbeat up until the day before I started actively miscarrying, 8w3d, even though it was only measuring 6w5d. Tenacious little thing. Anyhoo, I'll be relieved when I'm past this and when I start feeling the baby move. Then I think I'll be feeling a little more OK in my heart.

 

[starshine1001]

Oh, and P.S....enigo is in my DDC and says that she's lost another...she might be needing a little support from the vets. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">

 

[enigo]

Yep <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/redface.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Embarrassment"><br>
I actually am going in for some bloodwork tomorrow to see if we can find anything. I want to try again, but I really feel like I need to try to get some answers before I get pregnant again. My cycles have been really weird since the first mc and got more erratic with each one. Who knows what this last one will do. Maybe it throws some hormones off, who knows. I don't have symptoms of low progesterone (Or anything else for that frickin' matter!! <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked">) Everything just keeps coming back healthy. I'm so hoping they find something simple and easily fixable.<br><br>
One positive thing (I have lowered my standards obviously <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/irked.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="irked">) is that I found out there was no heartbeat last Thursday and started bleeding on Mother's Day. (Happy Mother's Day to meeee!) I have almost stopped bleeding already. I suppose my body is getting used to this whole mc thing.