[ArtsyHeartsy]

Hey everyone...

I started spotting on Saturday Night/Sunday Morn. I called the midwife on Monday morning and she said if it got worse or there was cramping I am probably miscarrying. (again!

) It did get worse (more red)and I did get crampy and feel crappy all day. I cried a LOT and just felt depressed all day. I told my mom, etc... and cried and cried and cried some more.

Yesterday I had to go to school (an hour away) from 8-5. when I woke up I was happy. I don't know why. I wasn't bleeding much anymore and I bled some during the day but not more than a normal period, probably not even as much. I only went to the restroom 3x all day...just because I felt something, but it wasn't bad at all.

I will go see the mw on Friday for the appt I originally had set up. Unless she tells me not to come in. (I have never seen her before)

Here's why I have a little hope left though. I found out I was pg on cd11, because I had a period, but it was very similar to this, started out with brown spotting, some clots (small, no tissue or anything) and kind of mucousy...and cramps. (sorry! yuk!) It was lighter than a period, I didn't even use anything aside from pads...and my periods don't generally start out that way. I am almost positive that I was pg before that and just had some sort of fake period. (also had a very faint pos before Oct. bleeding)

So could this be the same thing? My boobs are also still huge and heavy. My symptoms haven't changed, but I didn't have many to begin with. I have sort of come to terms with a loss, but I still have a sliver of hope. Am I fooling myself?

I just need some good vibes. I can't really talk to too many people since we haven't told anyone.

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[BlessedEarthMother]

Sending Good Vibes Your Way.....
Hang in there. There is so much power in a positive thought!! Hold that hope and who knows what kind of miracles could happen for you.

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I'll be holding positive, loving, sticky thoughts for you!

 

[mamaveggie]

:Hoping for good news for you on Friday.

 

[Mama_Michelle]

: Sending lots of hugs and sticky vibes!

 

[AnnR33]

Hoping the for the best for you!
I spotted alot with my last one-enough that I was sure I was m/c 2 different times. I even told people I m/c because I thought it was so much bleeding.
But he's a naughty 4 yr old now.... so there is definitely hope!

 

[ratrodgrl]

ArtsyHeartsy, I hope you have good news on Friday. I will be thinking good positive thoughts for you as well! I have no personal experience with anything other than random light-brown spotting, so I'm not much help. Hang on to that positive vibe!

 

[ArtsyHeartsy]

Thanks everyone! I am feeling okay now, but still bleeding some. Just trying to keep thoughts positive. If anything else, I need to get through this week sane...it's finals time. At first I gave up and just decided it was a m/c, but I decided to hang in and keep my hope alive until something is confirmed...either way. I will try to be an optimist! I feel much better thinking this way...it's also given me some time to come to terms with the possibilities.

Thank you so much for all of your good thoughts! I really feel like it helps!

I'm so happy I finally dove into this site!