[sagewinna]

<p>I'm ready to be done with this. Last Monday we had the ultrasound that showed our baby had passed away, s/he measured 6.5 weeks and I was almost 10 weeks pregnant.</p>
<p>Tuesday afternoon I started passing clots and cramping. It stopped overnight, then picked back up Wednesday morning and I bled in spurts and passed huge clots all day and into the night. Thursday the bleeding/passing clots slowed way down and my midwife visited. I told her I had felt something odd in my cervix and she looked, there was tissue in there so she removed what she could see and some of it was the grey/purple white tissue. Friday was crampy still and more clots. Saturday and Sunday were actually a lot better so I thought I was done, some small clots and more steady but lighter bleeding. This morning the cramps got really bad, then I passed a huge (2.5"X 1.5" maybe) mass of hard tissue that was pointed at the end, so that's what was stuck in my cervix! The bleeding picked back up and it's been off and on. I can't feel anything in my cervix anymore so that must be good. I have passed so much, I am just amazed by the volume of clots and stuff. (I am on iron suppliments now, my midwife tested my hemoglobin and I was pretty low.)</p>
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<p>I just want to feel better and be able to trust it, yk?</p>
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<p>I want to be absolutely not pregnant anymore, not in this no-man's land.</p>
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<p>I want to stop searching every clot and blob I pass for something recognizable that I can hold on to.</p>
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[mom-to-jj]

<p><span><img alt="hug.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug.gif"> I know exactly what you mean! I miscarried on a Saturday night, felt great on Sunday, and then felt some really strange sensations on Sunday night and Monday morning. On Monday I saw a bit of a clot that had whitish tissue on it, and I figured everything was out then. But two days later my OB did an u/s and found that the gestational sac was lodged at the top of the cervix, and he was able to manually remove it. After that it was another week and a half of minor bleeding that tapered off gradually, but I'd occasionally still see a very small clot.</span> I was at exactly the same stage as you when I m/c'd, and I, too, was completely amazed by all the clots I saw, and by how big they were.</p>
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<p>My first m/c was a blighted ovum that ended much earlier than this pregnancy. I recall that a full month after the miscarriage, I had some cramping one night, and passed another small clot. The bleeding had been over for two weeks, but there was still something my body was working on. Just trust your body to continue the process. I'm so sorry. I know it seems to take forever. <span><img alt="hug.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug.gif"></span></p>

 

[KristaDJ]

<p><span><img alt="hug.gif" src="http://files.mothering.com/images/smilies/hug.gif"> It will end mama. I know the waiting is hard.</span></p>