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Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the loss of my sweet baby Halyn. I had two healthy beautiful babies and then got pregnant expecting the same. I was shocked when at 9 weeks I started bleeding. I ended up with an u/s and lots of waiting and a d&c three weeks later on july 6th. It's been hard for me this last year. I think things have changed in me somehow and why not, this was a huge blow to me. I am pregnant again now (24wks) and have had a pretty uneventful pregnancy but I think I'm still in a bit of "denial" if you can call it that. I am hoping once I am past this year mark that I will some how have closure.<br><br>
Is there anything that you mama's did to remember your babies at a year? I'm at a loss here. My dh doesn't even know that I'm having an issue with this and really I got so much more support online than irl it doesn't even seem worth calling any friends. No one around me seems to really understand. Thanks for listening.
 

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*hugs* to you today.<br><br>
You could set aside a specific time, light a candle or incense, or both. Buy some beautiful flowers, be "in" the moment. You could write a letter or a little note to your baby. Eat something special.<br><br>
Be gentle with yourself.<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">
 

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I'm so sorry, mama. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
Today was a year from the date we found our our Amalie died. Honestly, all I did to commemorate the day was to sob for hours last night (the cry I probably should have had a year ago) and then sleep like crap.<br><br>
I did feel Amalie with me this morning though, so strongly. I drifted back to sleep feeling like I was holding her, so that was nice, since I never go to do that. Then when I went in to wake up dd1, she snuggled up to me and told me she wished Amalie was "out of heaven" and back with our family already. So I guess it wasn't just me thinking of her today. So that was nice too.<br><br>
I hope you had a decent, or at least peaceful, day.
 

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I am late to this but I just wanted to send you a <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br>
I hope the anniversary was peaceful and you found a way to commemorate it in a way that you want.<br>
Best wishes for this pregnancy too.<br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/candle.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Candle">
 

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Many hugs. The year anniversary can be really hard. I hope that you are doing alright.<br><br>
For my year anniversary of my loss, I decorated a beautiful box with flowers and butterflies and just pretty things and put all my "things" I had from my pregnancy. I actually look at it every anniversary of Therese's loss, and I even have some printouts of some of the amazing posts that I had here that offered me so much love and support.
 

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Thanks so much ladies for the nice and encouraging words. I still have to get a "keepsake" box for my LO. It would have been nice to do it for the anniversary but with everything going on this summer I still haven't gotten around to it. I'm going to make it a priority this week though. I have some u/s pics as well as some very beautiful cards from family/friends. Having some of the printed support I got on line too would be a great idea. That was honestly some of the best support I got.
 
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