[umami_mommy]

i wish my damn mood would stablize. one day i'm fine, the next depressed as hell and then my anxiety level is sky high. my anxiety makes me mean and cranky too.<br><br>
i know part of this is PPD issues, and some is the fibro... but man i feel like a puppet on a string.<br><br>
i'm so overwhelmed with everthing there is to do around here and then on top of that i have to deal with dh criticizing and hanging over me being judgemental. he keeps giving me a hard time about everything that needs to be done before we put our house up for sale and then he spends all day sunday giving me a hard time about all the stuff i threw out from the mudroom and everything i moved so we can paint in there. then yesterday he flipped because i wasn't waiting outsdie ready to do when he got home at 4:30 to go pick up his car. i try to ignore him but sometimes he makes me so edgy and defensive i want to hide when i know he's gonna be home from work.<br><br>
more and more i'm tempted to sent ds to school in the fall. i know he will hate it and be in trouble all the time and i promised mysefl i would never send me kids to school.. but i'm just so worn out sometimes. just all used up and don't know how to cope only more. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/gloomy.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Gloomy">:<br><br>
if only i could be in the same mood for more than a few hours, KWIM?

 

[Shiloh]

I hated it when my stbxh used to hover over me and supervise everything I did instead of pitching in.... talk about demotivating.<br><br>
I think in the meanwhile schedual tasks for you do do both by time, so he can't be in the same room (you clean the garage while I clean the kitchen so if he's in the kitchen he's not doing what he should be)<br><br>
Why not send dc to school for a month or two? If you are commmitted to homeschooling it will be a reminder of why he wants to be homeschooled <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/wink1.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="wink1"><br>
Call it school camp maybe if he realises its temporary he won't internalise the school yucky stuff or maybe he will like it more this time.

 

[shantimama]

I homeschooled my children for 5 years and never wanted them to go to school. Then a bunch of super-stressful things happened in our life and I just about tipped over. We decided to try it out and it has been a good thing. There have been a few struggles, but then we had some (different) struggles when we homeschooled too. Sending them to school gave me a chance to catch my breath a little bit and the time I needed to deal with all of the pain of my abuse that I suddenly just could not stuff down any more.<br><br>
We may homeschool again someday, although I am surprised to find myself saying that our kids' school is amazing and is offering them some things I couldn't at this point in our life.<br><br>
I would never be one to encourage a change from homeschooling to school because I really do believe in homeschooling - but there are some seasons in our lives when we just can't do it all the way we would like to. Sometimes my pride got in the way of my deeper intuition telling me that school would be the best option for our family. I hated admitting it, but I love the joy that has returned to our family with the kids in a positive, interesting atmosphere and with me not so totally fried all of the time.

 

[MillingNome]

I too like the idea of finding ways to get dh doing chores or otherwise not in the same room as you when you are doing your stuff. Someone hooving over you as you try to get things done is a recipe for hurt feelings...<br><br>
As for going from homeschooling to reg school- is there any in between where you can homeschool and maybe find some groups to send him to? If I was going to homeschool (not that I can <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/lol.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="lol"> ) I would try line up outside classes through the musuems and like in the area. There are a lot here but not sure about where you are. Also, maybe you could try posting in the homeschool forum some of your concerns and get their ideas. They will be biased but it sounds like you lean that way too <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/smile.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="smile">

 

[umami_mommy]

thanks shanti...it's not so much that i think schooling woudl be best for my ds or our family, it's just that he is very high needs. has been since the day he was born almost 5 years ago. and i keep thinking "let someone else deal with him for a while, i'm too tired."<br><br>
we tried out a waldorf inspired co-op group the last two weeks and he refuses to go back. too many kids, too mcuh chaos. <sigh> oh well. gonna try a tiny montasorri (sp??) group next week. my poor high needs, sensitive, inflexable kid!! (he would despise school)

 

[intentfulady]

Thanks Shanti.<br><br>
I am so grateful for this part of your story.<br><br>
I homeschooled 3 kids, all adults now.<br><br>
I have a 4 yaer old I am putting into preschool.<br><br>
On one hand it is so hard, on the other, a blessing.<br><br>
We must keep opening to receiving the blessings and gifts out there for us.<br><br>
Thanks again.<br>
Bless You !!