[CatWinn]

Happy holidays. I am over ten weeks along and just found out I've had another missed miscarriage. It's very fitting: I saw the year in this way, and now I'm seeing it out...first one was discovered past January and I waited to miscarry naturally. Nothing happened for weeks. Then I tried a cytotec induction. Zip. Finally I had a D&C and proceeded to bleed on and off (heavily when on) for over two months (Feb 2 - Apr. 4). Along the way I had my hCG checked and it was falling at an excruciatingly slow pace.
We conceived again early October. I again went through weeks of sickness, nausea, breast pain, blah blah blah...just found out the heart beat and growth stopped a couple of weeks ago, according to yesterday's sono. I'm not messing around with any more agonizing waiting...scheduled a D&C for this Thursday.
I don't want to do this again. Help.

 

[veganmama719]

I am so very sorry Catwinn. I had 2 losses this year myself. One happened atually but the second one was missed. Fortunately the induction worked for me.

My thoughts are with you mama. Peace, love and strength to you.

 

[JayJay]

Oh, I am SO sorry this happened twice to you. I know you will get through this. WE will help you. *HUGS hugs to you*

XXXX

 

[shantiani]

I'm so very sorry.
My first miscarriage took 6.5 weeks from the time the baby stopped development to finally happen. I found out at 10wks and the next few weeks of waiting were excruciating. So, I totally understand why you want to get it over with quickly. There is resolution in having it done and moving on.
I ended up having 2 more miscarriages soon after, and they both happened much faster on their own. I guess each time is different. And I hope that this time your body recovers quickly and your hormones go back to normal right away.
I know that having consecutive miscarriages really feels like getting kicked when you're down. I'm really sorry that you are going through this right now

Good luck and take care of yourself.

 

[MiracleMama]

I'm so sorry you have to end the year this way. It is so hard. I haven't had 2 in a row, but I had a second m/c and d&c two weeks ago, and it is just devestating. The cytoctec did not work for me either. I took 2 rounds of it over a course of 2 weeks. The waiting was excruciating. I even tried acupuncture. I'm so mad at my body.
I send you lots of peace and hugs as you heal from this.

 

[CatWinn]

Thank you all for your support. It has been a comfort to me. I have definitely developed a mistrust of my body. I know I should feel good that my body is protecting me, in a way, by stopping the development of what would be a malformed and unhealthy baby and pregnancy, but I also feel like my body is lying to me. Twice now, I have gotten every signal that these pregnancies were developing fine, but in truth they'd ended weeks since, and I'm only nauseous, exhausted, swollen and everything else, for nothing, really.
I'm just venting.
It's been such a help to read everyone's words.
Thank you.

 

[MiracleMama]

Sending you big hugs as you go through this. I know what you mean, i try to think that the miscarriages were Mother Nature's way of protecting us from something too, but it's not always easy to accept.
Get lots of rest if you can and take good care of yourself.

 

[Eliseatthebeach]

Thinking of you today....I am so sorry.

 

[Sophiasmomma]

HUGs to you

I am awaiting to MC my second pregnancy for this yr as well

so you are not alone.
12 weeks was the first one and the second one I just found out died at 8 weeks 3 days

I hope your healing well..
I had a D&C with the first since I was further along hoping to go naturally but wont wait too long as It is nice to move on

 

[birthangeldoula]

I also had two lost pregnancies this year.
Hang in there --- Hugs to you mama

 

[Cuddlebaby]

yeah it was a crappy year for me too.

 

[caj'smommy]

So sorry to hear of your losses. I had 2 missed m/c in a row close together as well (@12 &10 weeks) 5 years ago. The 3rd time we tried I ended up with my youngest DD who is now 4. Just wanted to LYK there can be light at the end of the dark tunnel. Just don't give up.

 

[lil_stinkyfeet]

I am sorry for you loss. I also had two miscarriages this year. It sucks