by "our," i mean me and Willow
(the start of the story is in this thread
if you haven't read it. long thread!)
we're moved downstairs, which is a HUGE relief. already today i was able to sling Willow and walk outside with her, get the mail, show her the flowers and trees
we ended up with only my husband's sister helping, all his "friends" were no-shows, so he's still moving stuff down and cleaning up tonight. i've been pushing it to the max helping out, i f'ed up my wrists and knees pretty badly so i was going to go to see my rheumatologist tomorrow about intense physical therapy and possibly meds. but Pan got good news today: he got a job! full time, no benefits, but it's a job!!!
so i'm not sure when i'll be able to get to physical therapy but i love the fact that i don't have stairs to deal with so i can just go out for a walk with Willow. i love walking outdoors.
i'm unpacking only what we really need. most of my boxes are marked. some things got mixed up when i couldn't get back upstairs to pack. but all the stuff Willow and i truly need are there for us.
he called his mom finally to borrow money, May's rent wasn't paid yet (because of his trouble with the car getting impounded) and the landlord called this morning saying he'd evict by the 2nd if we don't pay (i checked and he was within his legal rights). apparently my mom-in-law has had a beef with her son and was holding it in for the last 5 years, he got it full-force tonight. she's giving him the money but doesn't want to hear from him again. from what he told me, i totally agree with her. but she no longer wants to speak to me, i don't know what i did, other than marry her son. it may be because i can't work and contribute to the household?
in any case ... it's scaring me that my husband has done something 5 years ago that was so bad his own mom hates him.
he won't tell me what's up.
he's not a threat to me or Willow, at any rate. we're living separately as possible for now. i know having a full-time job will improve a LOT of things for him. but i'm still keeping my safety plan and bags ready.
is it wrong for me to want to have it both ways? i mean, to want things to work out between us, yet have one foot out the door ready to run if i need to?