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Hi- I am just about 8 mos post an unsuccessful VBAC attempt. Aside from all my emotional issues and trauma I am hoping that my family will grow by at least one more and would like to start looking for a good practice now.
I wondered if anybody here had had a successful VBA2C experience in the greater Boston area and if so with what practice they had it.
(I will also post in the tribal areas)
I had worked with an OB practice and was essentially forced into the first c/s. I switched to a M/W practice for the second baby but had trouble there too. Basically (first time writiting out any birth story type stuff so please excuse whatever needs excusing) I was scheduled for a repeat c/s due to dangerously low fluid and showing no signs of labor. While waiting for the surgery I was able to admit that I was actually in labor and had been having ctx all the previous night ( I was sure it was just false labor meant to tease me!). After discussing with docs and m/w was cleared for TOL. Labored beautifully for 16 hours with little dilation but a lot of pitocin. MW checked and said I was at 8 so I consented to an epidural. Epidural left a bad window of pain and when MW checked again she confessed she had made a mistake and I was only a 4 or 5. With no options left to move around or facilitate labor I lost my grounding. The pain increased exponentially, 1st MW left, 2nd MW said she was worried about rupture so I begged them to get the baby out. C/S was awful and I think they gave me sedatives against mine and my husband's requests. All in all it was very traumatic and I don't feel safe going back to the same MW practice. Someday I will write more about this.
So long story short I need a new MW!! I know the ones I was with would allow a VBA2C with doctor consent but I am hoping they aren't the only ones. Any help would be much appreciated. I believe I am deep in the throes of PTSD, PPD or just depression but am working with someone amazing (Lois Freedman who wrote Birth as a Healing Experience). I am just looking for that little ray of hope that says that I am not left to decide between another baby and another C/S.
Thanks. I guess this is also my sneaky way of starting to deal with some of these issues and reach out to the Mothering community I love.
Ezrasmummy
I wondered if anybody here had had a successful VBA2C experience in the greater Boston area and if so with what practice they had it.
(I will also post in the tribal areas)
I had worked with an OB practice and was essentially forced into the first c/s. I switched to a M/W practice for the second baby but had trouble there too. Basically (first time writiting out any birth story type stuff so please excuse whatever needs excusing) I was scheduled for a repeat c/s due to dangerously low fluid and showing no signs of labor. While waiting for the surgery I was able to admit that I was actually in labor and had been having ctx all the previous night ( I was sure it was just false labor meant to tease me!). After discussing with docs and m/w was cleared for TOL. Labored beautifully for 16 hours with little dilation but a lot of pitocin. MW checked and said I was at 8 so I consented to an epidural. Epidural left a bad window of pain and when MW checked again she confessed she had made a mistake and I was only a 4 or 5. With no options left to move around or facilitate labor I lost my grounding. The pain increased exponentially, 1st MW left, 2nd MW said she was worried about rupture so I begged them to get the baby out. C/S was awful and I think they gave me sedatives against mine and my husband's requests. All in all it was very traumatic and I don't feel safe going back to the same MW practice. Someday I will write more about this.
So long story short I need a new MW!! I know the ones I was with would allow a VBA2C with doctor consent but I am hoping they aren't the only ones. Any help would be much appreciated. I believe I am deep in the throes of PTSD, PPD or just depression but am working with someone amazing (Lois Freedman who wrote Birth as a Healing Experience). I am just looking for that little ray of hope that says that I am not left to decide between another baby and another C/S.
Thanks. I guess this is also my sneaky way of starting to deal with some of these issues and reach out to the Mothering community I love.
Ezrasmummy