I've had postpartum depression since my 2nd baby was born about 4 months ago. It escalated to the point of crying my eyes out every day and wanting to kill myself or abandon my family. I have a 2 year old toddler and am finding life to be so overwhelming. My doctor recommended I see a therapist and she has helped. The thoughts of wanting to hurt myself and children mostly disappeared. I'm supposed to be taking omega and vit d but it pretty much never happens. I can barely feed myself a meal or brush my teeth, how in the f*** am I supposed to do extra things? Exercise was also prescribed, even a 10 minute walk but when you live somewhere it's -20 and snow taking a stroller of littles out is not feasible. I thought I was feeling better for the month of December but have fallen into the pit of despair and depression since January hit. I hate my life, hate the wife and mother I am, and just want to escape this unhappiness. Running away always sounds like good idea. I lack the motivation to-do the things that make me feel better.