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I really thought I'd made it this time but no, I had to run the m/c gauntlet one more time. I felt m/s right past 9wks but things changed week 10. I started having brown discharge, my breasts were'nt sore anymore, going for brisk walks didn't make me feel sick anymore, I had more energy. I told myself it was just going to be and easier pregnacy. This reality is that someone like me needs to feel sick as a dog for at least 13wks to know my hormone levels are high enough. I think my baby was still ok right up until a few days before m/c. I realize that every m/c is different like every pregnacy.<br>
This time it was much more brutal then the last time. I noticed blood on Sunday about 5am by morning I was starting to have bad cramps and a very sore back. I got worse all day, however there was very little bleeding. By 9pm I decided to take some advil and had a good night as all the pain went away. By yesterday 10 am I was having cramps so bad they felt like birth constractions, I had to get down on the floor on my hands and knees to get through them. I even timed them. By noon I started passing stuff and the bleeding got heavier. By 3pm it was all over and I had lost a lot of blood. When I got up at 4:30 I had a hard time being up so started drinking a huge bottle of gatoraid and later on that evening had another bottle. I had a little supper but basicly spent the rest of the time in bed.<br>
I never got the chance to see my dr, and I probably should of went to the hosptial but we live an a city that has only 3 hospitals for over a million people. I went in to the ER the last time I m/c and waited for hours when I finally checked myself out and went home to m/c. Yesterdays m/c was fast and furious. I had a dr. appt today and my blood pressure is 101/? so it is low but will come up in the next few days. I am also feeling very weak and tired. I also had an u/s today to see what was left inside. I just hope it all clears out with none left behind to cause a problem so I can move on.<br>
It sure helps to have a place to write things down. It makes it easier to move on.<br>
Marianne
 

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I am so sorry. It is so very hard. Many, many <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"> to you, I wish you peaceful moments in the coming days.<br>
Please be gentle with yourself and grieve in whatever way feels right.<br><br><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/candle.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Candle">
 

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I'm so sorry, honey. Hugs from Texas.
 

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I am sorry for your losses, Marianne.<br><br>
Take good care of yourself through these hard days.<br><br>
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Thank you all for the kind words and thoughts. Yesterday was really hard. My kids are at their Oma's (grandmas) house so I can get some rest and recover; however I've found that to be a double edge sword. It's too quiet here and not enough business. Today I'm going to go for a small walk as the sun has come out and temps. are warm and may go to work tonight. I feel the need to get my life back to normal, if that makes sense.<br>
Anyways, thank you.<br>
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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">s
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> So sorry for your loss. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">
 

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I'm so very sorry for your loss.
 

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Oh no, mama <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">. I saw your thread on the September board <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> How are you feeling now?
 

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Physically not too bad. The cramps seem to be done and the bleeding is extremely light. Emotionally this one is going to take longer to recover from. I have some trouble sleeping so on tuesday at my follow-up appt. as the dr. for something to help get me back into a good sleep cycle. Like all things in life, it will take some time to get back to 'normal'.<br>
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Yep- this is my second loss since Skye was born and it's been devastating because for those first weeks, I felt this baby so very clearly and was feeling so very very ill. Then, of course, it stopped <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad"> I was just so sure this babe was a keeper, y'know?<br>
Of course, I didn't feel (either physically or psychically) that second little bean. So obviously, my mothers intuition was broken anyhow.
 

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<img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/hug2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Hug2"> So, so sorry. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/greensad.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="greensad">
 
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