So this pregnancy was totally unplanned. I still hadn't gotten my period back after having my dd, and we were using condoms, and co-sleeping (so not a lot of sex here). So we just happened to have sex the first time I ovulated in over three years, and the condom just happened to not work (it didn't break or anything). So get pregnant was not probable, but we did. Financially it is pretty bad, but should be in that "really bad" state for less than a year after birth, so we can do it. You can do anything for a year, right? So while that adds quite a bit of worry, that's not my main fear. Every day I find myself thinking, "how the hell can I handle two kids?" I mean I'm worn down and just so tired and I just have one, what the crap am I going to do when I have two? I just have no reserves left, and another one is coming along. Does anyone else feel like this? Any BTDT mamas want to tell me it's normal to feel and it's not as bad as I"m imagining? I love this kid very much, and am glad to be having it, but I'm just overwhelmed by the thought.