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I was on medication for depression for many years. My depression manifests itself as irritability and lack of motivation with some sadness thrown in. And just a general "blah" feeling. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll"><br><br>
Over those years, I steadily gained weight. I actually gained exactly 100 lbs. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/jaw2.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="jaw2"> I was always very petite and I obviously had a very hard time with being obese. Yet despite trying diets and exercise, I never lost a pound. Well, actually I <i>did</i> lose weight when I went off the meds during my pregnancy. But due to severe PPD I went back on them the day after I gave birth.<br><br>
The doctors (several of them) ignored me. I've tried Zoloft, Prozac, Effexor, Celexa and Wellbutrin. Everything increased my weight (except Wellbutrin, but it didn't do anything for my depression). I did a lot of research and weaned off the meds in June and started taking natural supplements (fish oil, amino acids, vitamins). For the most part, I was okay. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/thumb.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="thumbs up"> I've also lost 40 lbs and am steadily LOSING for a change! And it feels effortless!!<br><br>
Now, after a couple of horrible months (miscarriage triggered it), I am really depressed again. The natural supplements don't seem to be working anymore. Exercise (i.e. walking) isn't working. I am SO irritable. Cranky. Sad. Sometimes even furious. I tried Wellbutrin and it made me even more angry. It isn't fair to my family for me to be in such a bad mood day after day. I know if I just started taking Prozac again I'd feel normal.<br><br>
But, it comes down to vanity. I am in love with my new body. I am horrified by the thought of going back up. I'd almost rather be dead. We aren't talking a few pounds here. It seems like the meds really affect me and I get <span style="text-decoration:underline;">fat</span>. I just can't handle it again. I talked to a pdoc and he basically said most of them will likely affect me in this way and I have to choose to be happy & fat or miserable & thin. *&4#@.<br><br>
I am SO ANNOYED.
 

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<span style="font-family:'Comic Sans MS';"><span><img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug"><br><br>
I, too, have gained weight while taking depression meds. Partly due to the meds and partly due to poor eating habits. This winter I was actually more than 30 lbs. heavier than when I was 9 month pregnant. I, too, have a small frame. I am short, 5'2" and wear a size 5 1/2 shoe so any extra weight is noticed. For me, even though I look awful, I would rather look awful and be mentally ok than the other way around. I was suicidal in my 20's and I never want to go back there again. I plan on never trying to go off of my depression meds....ever!<br><br>
Have you tried Lexapro. I am on that and it works well. Wellbutrin was terrible for me also.</span></span>
 

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I haven't tried Lexapro, but if it causes weight gain i don't want it. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/winky.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="Wink"> Yes, I have often said in the past that I'd rather be sane and fat. But I guess now that I am getting closer to a normal weight (I still have a ways to go), I am holding onto it desperately. It is awesome being able to fit into clothes nicely and having my DH check me out again. I've felt like a big blob for far too long.<br><br>
Demeter, I have a bottle of SAM-e. I thought it didn't help me. But I noticed in another post you (I think it was you?) mentioned you take 800 mgs a day? Mine are only 200 mgs so maybe I need to take more. I took some today. How long before it kicks in?
 

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200 is no where near enough for depression. It might help with a few other conditions, but not depression.<br><br>
For depression you should be looking at a dose of 800-1600 a day. 800 would be the low end of the scale.<br><br>
If you don't like the cost of the higher amounts, there is some research showing that Ginkgo Biloba increases the effectiveness of depression medications. Taking the 800 with a Ginkgo might be very useful. Also taking it with a B-Complex helps with uptake and helps regulate homeocystine production.<br><br>
SAM-e at the higher dosages has the same effectiveness as prescription meds without most of the side effects. Usually the effectiveness can take up to a week or two, but many people report that at the higher dosages they start getting relief much faster.<br><br>
I personally am a fan to front loading with SAM-e. Starting with large dosages and then tapering off until I notice the effects sliding, then going back up to where the dosage works for me again. So, I would start with 1200 for a couple of weeks.
 

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Thanks, I'll try it now. So I'm guessing it doesn't cause weight gain (I guess I'll find out!). At this point I really need something. I freaked out on my dad yesterday because he kept talking about SIL's pregnancy (I am very sensitive lately apparently due to my miscarriage and the fact she is due when I would have been) and because he pointed out I'm starting to go grey. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="/img/vbsmilies/smilies/eyesroll.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="roll"> Still, no reason to swear at the poor man.<br><br>
And I think my DH may divorce me soon if I don't get a grip. Yeah, I'll start front-loading on SAM-e today.
 

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Actually, SAM-e is very useful to your liver. The sulfur in it can be used for many important processes in your body. I would be very surprised if it caused weight gain.
 

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Okay, no clue if it is SAM-e or coincidence, but I took 800 mgs yesterday and today is the first day in weeks where I've felt normal. I also have a bigger appetite for the first time, but hopefully I can keep a handle on that. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/orngbiggrin.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="orange big grin">
 

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I'm curious as to whether the SAM-e worked for you Mommahhh.
 

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Are you off caffiene? That seems to be a trigger for some people if you have a mix of depression and anxiety- which it sounds like you do. Irritation is often caused by anxiety.<br><br>
Are you sleeping enough? Taking vitamin D? This did wonders for me. They are now saying most of us are deficient in this vitamin and it's really important in the prevention of cancers and lots of other bodily functions.<br><br>
And last I have issues other than what you are dealing with, but have severe depression (bipolar/ADD/OCD) and have found tremendous and lasting relief with Empower+, which is a pill you can get here: <a href="http://www.truehope.com" target="_blank">www.truehope.com</a>.<br><br>
I encourage you to call their hotline and learn about their program. For me it was cheaper than pills (granted I was on more than you are), and wow no side effects.<br><br>
I've been very stable (no serious depressions- only one or two days a month I get slightly down which is way better than the HUGE dips in mood that would drag on endlessly) for over a year.<br><br>
Diet has a huge effect on mood as well, sugar and refined carbs are serious no-no's, also keeping a very strict sleep schedule helps a lot.<br><br>
And lastly do you feel at this point triggered by the seasonal change? Light therapy can help if you have SAD, which is a seasonally triggered depression.
 

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My dear just posting <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">s as I have had ridiculous weight gain since dd2's birth and I've been on Prozac. I'm 5'4" and 200 lbs!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've never been overweight in my life except now. It is really hard on the vanity, I agree. Totally.<br><br>
I hope you find something else that works for you. <img alt="" class="inlineimg" src="http://www.mothering.com/discussions/images/smilies/hug.gif" style="border:0px solid;" title="hug">
 
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