<p>we co-sleep with baby. but i feel guilty for my son. deep guilt is a thing i suffer from over everything anyway (yeah i know i need to get that sorted) it's just that he is such a loving little boy and he often tells me he gets "only" (his word for lonely) in his room and wants to sleep with us it's heartbreaking saying no, thing is we wouldnt all fit in our bed (can't afford a bigger one right now/our room wont fit a bigger one, english terrace houses arent so big lol) and he is a snoring, fidgeting, pokey bed-hog and gets real bad nighttime stinky breath lmao</p>
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<p>his bedroom is AWESOME seriously we went all out to make it look like something outta "cribs" and he loves it, but i can't shake then mental picture of him all the way down the hall and us in our room all snuggled, it just doesnt feel right, but neither does having him in our bed so im stuck? i tried having him on a blow-up bed at the bottom of our bed, but his teachers kept writing me notes telling us he was yawning his way through classes and not concentrating, probably because dh sleeptalks, i go to pee 3 times a night still and baby wakes and grunts/needs bumchanges lol and even corban eventually asked to go back to his bedroom. He soo just wants to bedshare, he wanted to from time to time b4 baby was here so it's not like it's a knee-jerk reaction to baby being born, though i am hyper-sensitive to **any possible** source of sibling-jealousy since corban came out with "im not your number one anymore" and i just bawled. man, kids eh?! they know just how to get you right in the heart!</p>
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<p>i know i'll probably be re-posted into the family bed but i know you guys a bit better and trust your opinion, guess maybe im just feeling a bit emotional today *pouts*</p>